I don't believe that anyone understands exactly how messed up that I actually am. I don't want to talk/type anything else over myself. I need serious HELP. I went to a Psychiatrist? Yesterday, I was somewhat schooled on the difference between the Mind doctors. He prescribed me some low dose medication to calm my physical symptoms down at least. It is as needed per my request to not take antidepressants. And I actually got a call back to get in to see a Counselor on the 19th. God is helping me in ways. I know the signs when I see them. And I do believe it is because I Am Following Jesus and living as Righteous as I Possibly Can. I Would Like to ask the Chat to PRAY for Me. I NEED ALL of the HELP that I Can Get. I need Prayer for the Courage and Trust in the Lord to be the Man and Serve His Purpose for Me for My Son, relationships, that the sale of my house goes through, my finances, and my car. PLEASE JESUS HELP ME. 
Thank You ALL...
Thank You ALL...