I am curious as to whether you are fellowshipping regularly with a "church?" With COVID, our church stopped meeting, except on Zoom. When it restarted, I had to stop going to church, because if king COVID and my RA meds not working! although I watch my church's services online. Some days I can make it to church, other weeks, not! We are in a small group that meets once a month, but we've had some conflicts with the days the last couple of months & missed that. I literally never missed a service for years! I was involved in many ministries, too! But I am not prophesying about churches. And now that my health prevents me from regular attendance, I make no claim to understand where my church is going, let alone their passion& zeal for God! Or my part in that. My hands have become very deformed from meds not working for many years, and I can't even claim to be on a worship team, anymore, to play my flute & sing. How are you involved in your local church, during COVID and after, and with your health issues? My past memories of you, Blain, were that you rarely attended church, for some very acceptable reasons. So, are you attending a body of Christ, serving in ministry, that you are confident you can speak to "the churches?" "Yes my purpose isn't about me or anything it is for the church it is for a wake up call a rise to be the body that we once were." This is a quote from you above. You claim directly to have a purpose to call the church to be the body that it once "was!" When was this mythical time when the church "was" once ?! Was what? How is the church different? How do you know this if you don't attend church? Or if you attend church, that is only one local church in one place. How can you speak for all these churches you know nothing about? "My resolve is absolute even the church itself complains about the state of the itself many believers often say how churches have become watered down how there is no real passion or zeal for God" Ok, I cut into this incredibly long run-on sentence. Paul wrote a lot of long sentences in Greek. But you can get away with it in Koine Greek because of the cases & the use of many clauses! You can't get away with a run-on sentence that long in English! Now, you are claiming the church ITSELF is saying no one has no real passion or zeal for God! How do you know this? I know of many churches with a deep passion for God. I have a friend from seminary, he's a Cuban pastor and being persecuted by the state for his faith. He says the church is growing by leaps & bounds in his country. He and his fellow pastors are planting churches weekly, that grow wonderfully. People are hungry to know Jesus Christ, after 80 years of an atheistic, communist government! Every time he sends in a paper he has written for a class, the special police interrogate him! He knows everything going on in all the evangelical churches in Cuba, because he is a pastor, works with pastors, and is almost finished his credentials which validate his work. He is highly respected by his colleagues and congregation! You are limited yourself to some American churches where you live. If you attend at all. God is not without witnesses. He is in control. His church will prevail. I'm not saying it's a bad or wrong idea to encourage and help the churches in North America! But I do wonder how you can do that, unless you are not only established in a church, but working in intercity church councils, reading and researching methods, techniques that the Holy Spirit can use to start what must be a revival. I don't think there is another word that would imply stirring up God's people than a revival! One of my professors, a missionary to Indonesia on a furlough, joined the council of churches in my local city. He was the only evangelical churchman there, except the imam from the local mosque. (This, according to the imam!) It was all mainline & apostate churches. But he felt it was worthwhile to connect with this radically lost community. Have you been involved in something like this? If not, how do you know where the churches in your area are at? Are you in contact with many Evangelical pastors, or do you think you will be a one man show? How can you have a mission to churches you know nothing about? Do you think the Holy Spirit is going to intervene, tell you everything about all churches, so you can fulfill your purpose? Seriously, you would have utterly no credibility. People harass me for my education, but part of the reason God had pushed me to get a biblical & theological education, is to have the bona fide credibility of having studied to show myself approved. (2 Tim 2:15) Plus, the working experience to show you have paid your dues. You want to have some unverifiable experiences as the foundation for being a prophet to the churches? Blain, this is the definition of grandiosity. It is mental illness, pure & simple. Delusional, in fact! Sigh! It is heart breaking to hear you speak, when you don't realize that because your revelations do conflict with the word of God, it means you are a false prophet. As much as you deny the mantle of prophecy, you still are claiming you are a prophet. Please, read your Bible daily. Every page, every word. Stop this automatic writing! Repent of your vanity in thinking God has chosen you for a purpose you have not prepared for. And if God has called you, why have you not prepared yourself? I'm sorry, but it breaks my heart reading your confusion and delusions! I will pray that the Holy Spirit will deal with these dangerous delusions you have. And I don't mean this as an insult. I truly care about you, and I am stunned to see how far you have fallen from God, while claiming to be a modern day prophet!