I hear your heart..and I truly understand..for, in my own immediate family, my brother-in-law lost both of his arms in a farming accident two years ago, and yes, he was a CHRISTIAN before the accident, however.....in YOUR case...this tragedy forced you to begin to realize there is a spiritual side of things and you began to make positive choices, which did lead to finding CHRIST in you life, indeed! Praise GOD for that...positive can come out of negative. In my brother-in-law's situation... he already knew JESUS...but was not very close to HIM.. Now, he makes it day by day, but his relationship to CHRIST is very minimal, if not cast aside at the moment. His marriage, his attitude and more has become sour. I cannot imagine not knowing JESUS in times of suffering. You are a very exceptional fortunate person and GOD will and has begun to use you mightily....the sky is the limit to what and where you can go. As for my family member, he has the same opportunities as you..but it has to be a choice..a mindset, and attitude of gratitude....on his part. I would say that, GOD, in HIS infinite wisdom, will change a person's life in times of tragedy, but forcing HIMSELF upon someone, giving them pain for His future atonement does not line up with Biblical meanings. For instance, GOD allowed Adam to 'name the animals"...GOD did not interrupt or say "Uh, Adam, do you really want to call that creature a platypus? lol