I'm not sure if this is out of context but in my community, our church used to throw disco/club nights on holy grounds on some Saturday nights. I've always known this to be wrong. people who attended these discos drank alcohol, smoked weed and had sex on the grounds. Keep in mind, this church is one of the oldest churches on our area and so they also established a primary school many years ago. On these nights attendees would enter school premises and do these things in them too then the children are left to pick up waste, wipes, toilet papers, food papers, alcohol bottles or even pick up lost cigarettes.
I went to meet with the reverend to petition this not only for me and some community members but also that this is against God's word. They threw my past in my face. I was a satanist and glory be to God, he called me and saved me. Now I'm a Christian for many years. I'm changed and it is soo obviously noticeable that no one can deny God's mercy and goodness. For some reason this church leader thought it was right to insult me about my past and basically use it as a key for me not to speak up and have no place to say a thing cause how would I know what's right or wrong. And yes, I was wrong for many years, but that was between me and God, not man. They also threw in my face that I'm not actively working in the church, as if works gets you to God? Another leader that attended the meeting stated that I am an respected individual in this community and can use this to form a group, and maybe do Bible study with them in the mountains as I love hiking.
Instead of getting heated I just left the room. Because I know I was sent by the Holy spirit to speak up against this long history and tradition of this church.
Afterwards, all high church members/leaders heard word of this private meeting and showed me great hatred for it. Also, in my church there's is this division of groups each according to their social classes. When you enter church you have to please people's traditions to fit in a group or even het a proper greeting from your fellow brothers and sisters.
To add more detail, this disco is a long time tradition in our community and thrown for the whole community never-ending their church background. Youths as young as 13 can attend them. Not to leave out there have been cases of rape and brutal fights where many had to go to hospital. The whole community basically hate me for it as everyone got word through the church leaders I spoke against it. But I fear not because I know they feel shame for it. It's been a whole since they had a disco and I actually feel relieved about it.
I am however stuck between two. I feel like when I do go to this church I go up against something in me that don't sit right with its traditions and ways of doing things. THEY EVEN HAVE MARKETS IT SELL PRODUCTS INSIDE OF THE CHURCH. How can it sit right with me? Jesus turned and threw tables in the synagogues for insulting God's temples. How come no one speak up against this traditions in my community and why am I hated so much for speaking up against it. I am 1 person against so many.
The level of gossiping in this church is really worrisome and you cannot do or say anything about it. I'm really conflicted against going to this church. I should go to church but all surrounding churches basically have this same unbiblical traditions and structure. I don't know what to do
Also, I asked them why do they throw these disco club events and they say it's the fastest way to get money. How can you lead so many lost and confused youth/people astray from God's truth and justify your actions with out church needs money and this is the only way?? HOW?
What should I do? Any advise? Was I wrong?