i wish you well soon & that all issues are resolved quickly. bearing & getting thru trials is definitely, 1 of the most difficult dealings in life. very difficult & sometimes, very lengthy. i've been in trials for as much as 7 months! recently, my wife & i enjoyed a 15 day vacation in the Caribbean & God start a trial in me while there!!! i never thought that would happen. anyway, i'm giving myself a score of 9 & a half in how i overcame it. i am surprised on how well i endured it. it took me a while, years, to get to the point of counting it all joy as the book of James says.
I see this: Father and Son are working your salvation out in you. To see the truth, It is all daddy in the Holy Spirit that gets you through as you learn new from things happening to you.
As you just said, you were surprised
This being surprised, evil wants you to see to make you proud over getting through it. God wants you to see and be humble in Thanksgiving and praise God getting you through it!
Work out your own salvation, with fear and trembling
without seeing the rest of the verses, one thinks "I" got to do it!
Finds out they can't, not perfectly, yet learn to do better and take praise in doing it, thinking they are doing it, when they are not in truth doing it, it is evil pride that seeps in and one becomes better than others in that trying to do it and still sees themselves as not better than others, so they try harder and harder and this rat cycle continues trying to run and stands in the same place as a rat on a wheel does.
Authorized (King James) Version
Phil 2:11-13
11 and
that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ
is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. 13
For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.
see it is not us that do it, it is God that did it for us by risen Son to us all, to choose to believe God or not consciously. Now, us that try to do it, come to see they need God to lead, not themselves anymore or anyone else. For us to at least come to the end of self trying to do what no flesh can do, and that is to be perfect, to admit through themselves that no one can but God did, who did it for us all through Jesus for us to do in love and mercy to all, in humility and have no more pride or guilt left in us as religion puts pride in people to control people, these knowing the whole truth will not remove the hammer they use on people. Afraid no one will attend with them in their Church building, that in truth is not built by God (Hebrews 8:1-4)
You know this also, and now thank God for you in God trusting you to not quit as he said that about Job in the book of Job 1. Job will not deny me! said that to Satan. And Satan oh yeah, take away that hedge from him and he will curse you
I see through the entire book of Job, Job would not deny God at all and never did
there in there is a lot of learning. Then I see Jesus went willingly to death, not for just me, for us all as said in 1 John 2:1-2 the propitiation for any and all sin. Then risen where we are given new life to do it without us trying to do it anymore. So, believe, receive and see as God already sees you see and has trust in you to not ever give up, as you have decided this too, thank you