Hi
@Everlasting-Grace Thank you for a good question.
Saul’s will was to prevent the spreading of the gospel by persecuting those determined to spread it.
AFTER being stopped in His tracks by a blinding light and hearing the very voice of Jesus Christ (not an experience Saul chose for himself), and
after learning of God’s purpose for him, and
after being given a new name, Paul
chose to obey, just as we must do today. Paul was most definitely chosen (
elect) for a specific purpose to help build the church.; he certainly had no desire to further the cause of Christ as he began his journey that day. I think it’s best to read what Paul had to say about his own conversion and what the Lord had to say to him that day:
Acts 26:12-23 (New King James Version)
“While thus occupied, as I journeyed to Damascus with authority and commission from the chief priests, at midday, O king, along the road I saw a light from heaven, brighter than the sun, shining around me and those who journeyed with me. And when we all had fallen to the ground, I heard a voice speaking to me and saying in the Hebrew language, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads.’
So I said, ‘Who are you, Lord?’
And He said, ‘I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. But rise and stand on your feet; for
I have appeared to you for this purpose, to make you a minister and a witness both of the things which you have seen and of the things which I will yet reveal to you. I will deliver you from the Jewish people, as well as from the Gentiles, to whom I now send you, to open their eyes, in order to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me.’
“Therefore, King Agrippa, I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision, but declared first to those in Damascus and in Jerusalem, and throughout all the region of Judea, and then to the Gentiles, that they should repent, turn to God, and do works befitting repentance. For these reasons the Jews seized me in the temple and tried to kill me. Therefore, having obtained help from God, to this day I stand, witnessing both to small and great, saying no other things than those which the prophets and Moses said would come—that the Christ would suffer, that He would be the first to rise from the dead, and would proclaim light to the Jewish people and to the Gentiles.”