There's that self importance again....
I've, and others have said nothing to indicate that we have lacked, are lacking, or will lack confidence in Jesus. In fact just the opposite...that because of the things you have said and the way you have treated us we have serious doubts about you actually having a personal relationship with Jesus. That you think you do but somehow have missed creating a relationship with Jesus who is alive but have instead are following a Jesus of your own creation based loosely on the one we know.
In case you REALLY wanted to know.
First, second and foremost rule when dealing with Jesus is:
Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
And the most basic respect for God has not been evident to us in a single post you have made yet. Instead it seems more like you are selling voodoo services for obtaining power.
And I would caution you most seriously and strenuously that you stop before you hurt yourself by playing with what you flat out don't seem to understand at all. It won't be pleasant for you by a long shot. Misusing The Name, speaking for God when truly not, claiming to be "special" to God when not, and trying to touch/control/use what/whom belongs to God without His authorization.
All of these things individually, once upon a time, were deadly to those who did one...not lined up on top of each other this way.
Remember Simon Magnus? If not look him up....he tried the same stuff. It didn't work out for him.