When I was at tthe University of Illinois,Champaigne-Urbana, I had been active against the war in Viet Nam, even the Weathermen underground were afraid to deal with me becaus I was radical, moreso than they who were cosidered rads.
I became aware of Biafra's separating from from Nigeria. People in Biafra were starving, being besieged by Nigeria, and I saw images of children starving, the living with swollen bellies due to abject malnutrition.
I was terribly heartbroken aout all the killing in the world, and it was made worse when I foundout the US had sent aid to Biafra but parked it all abut three hunted miles way from Biafra because it did not want to pset diplomatic relations with Nigeria.; this hurt me terribly.
I wondered why God, if there was one, allowed such evil in this world.. Now, I had always liked Jesus christ but never actually knew Him but i ALWAYS Bbelieve this man loved all peple
I locked myself in a room determined to talk to Whoever is in charge ofev erything. I shook my fist to heaven and said, "You Are Who You Are, if You are good,, and if you really are in charge of everything, and if there really is a good outcome to all of this, I would like to know you." I said I was not going to eat or leave that room until I got a reply.
For some reason, I know now, I fell asleep, a deep sleep and I dreamed. I was "spoken to, and I was given the layout of the paths of alll men, they varied but all were going to the same destination, mine was not on one of the easy highways, it was up a mountain, a dark mountain on a very bad winding raod full of chuckholes . I was shown a vehicle anad I started to get in the driver's side, but I as told I am not driving....I road shotgun. In the back of the vehicle were may others, passengers. Off on the left there was a lake with people fishing swimmin waterskiing all smiling and waving as the vehicle departed.....There were words for me, but not for others so I will omit that.
I awoke in the morning and I felt exhilerated and content, yet everythig seemed new and strange to me. I went out on Green street which led to the campus, and as cars went by, although I know basically they were cars, they seemed like something unknown. One was blue I recall and I thought it looked lik a blue shape coming down the street.
Arriving to the Student Union I mentioned to a friend that I had had avery unusual experience after prying and I suppose, fasting albeit a very short fast. Then I as going tosee another frind to share this with who as in the astrophysics department. As I as crossing the Quadrangle, I was all I can call it is prayer thinking. I kept saying "Boy is man bad, boy is man ever wicked, he is just plaine wicked" Suddenly it occurred to me, 2Hey, I am a man(with this realization I realized I am part of that evil), and I said, "You are It( It meaning all that is good and in control.) This was turning from this age and this world to the Maker of all that is and truly giveng Him the glory. He spoke to me, a very simple message, there were no words no sound yet it was clear, "Everything is going to be just fine."
More happened, much more................much more.