I think...I think God wants me to pray for my father-in-law.
*sigh*
A few of you might remember how bad that particular relationship is/has been...well, it's improved some, but I still struggle with really disliking him and assuming the worst about his motives. Basically whenever he says anything, I automatically think he's lying or hiding something or being a hypocrite. It's awful and I try not to do this.
Anyway- he and his wife moved to a different town in February, started new jobs, all that. He still keeps his house next door to us though, and they stay there some weekends. Last night, he was over for pizza and beer, and ended up sitting and talking with us for several hours.
And every time he shared something, whether about his struggles, his homesickness, his past, his future...I could feel the Lord tugging at my heart, urging me to set aside my grudge and pray for this man. So I Did pray, short, private prayers when he and my husband were busy talking.
The amazing part of this...by the time he left our house, I was able to see past the arrogance and pride that is the first thing a lot of people notice. I dunno. I saw a broken man, who believes in a mean and spiteful God, who can't figure out why God is "punishing" him. I saw a man who is desperate for answers and hope.
God softened my heart. I won't claim to know the whole purpose behind Him prompting me to pray for my father-in-law, or what His plans are, but it's very...humbling, and...an honor, I think...to have the Lord see both my struggles with showing love and kindness to this man, and his need for prayer, and for Him to give me this opportunity. I don't know if I'm explaining it right. But I know God is doing something big in my heart.