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But it is what it is:
I think I've already slandered Him when I belonged to a religion that created images of Him, in the likeness of some playgirl centerfold, naked, bleeding, placed the Christ's name on this image and plastered it in every church on the planet when the Christ, in His Very First Commandment forbids His People to partake in such wickedness. At the time my conscience was seared with a hot iron and it didn't even bother me. But now, after escaping the religious franchises of the land, I can't believe I hated Him so much. I was deceived into believing my hate was Love. That Holy was unholy, that unclean was clean.
I think I already slandered Him when I choose a religion which rejected Him and mocked His Salvation plan which began with Passover, choosing instead to pick a Pagan worship day and place His Name on it, and call it His birthday, thus making it the greatest "Christian" High Day on the entire planet while relegating the Christ's Feasts to be flushed down their religious toilet. I was deceived into believing Christ's Feasts were not Holy, but men's religious doctrines and traditions were Holy. As the Christ inspired it to be written:
Is. 5:
20 Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!
21 Woe unto
them that are wise in their own eyes, and prudent in their own sight!
Today I slander Him when I let the whited walls get under my skin. When I forget that offences "Must happen". When I forget it is Him who opens the eyes of men, not me. I slander Him when I forget I too hated Him, and taught against Him, and lied about Him before He opened my eyes, which is His grace and mercy that I don't deserve.
But it is what it is:
19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal,
The Lord knoweth them that are his. And,
Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. (Lawlessness)
And so I strive to enter the gate to the Path the Christ walked as He instructed. Paul's word's explain my plight perfectly.
11 If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead.
12 Not as though I had already attained,
either were already perfect: but I follow after,
if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus.
13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but
this one thing
I do,
forgetting those things which are behind,
and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
15 Let us therefore,
as many as be perfect,
be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded,
God shall reveal even this unto you.
Have Mercy on me, my Lord.
10 With my whole heart have I sought thee: O let me not wander from thy commandments.
11 Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.
12 Blessed
art thou, O LORD: teach me thy statutes.
18 Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law.
19 I
am a stranger in the earth: hide not thy commandments from me.