Me too brother, but it isn't just a feeling.
Well, sort of, but not quite. You need to think a lot deeper. FGT teaches that a person is saved "no matter what" and no matter how they live and this is then, falsely, integrated into osas and they have no place together. Of course Scripture proves this no matter what (FGT) incorrect. As far as perseverance of the saints, preservation of the saints in determining their eternal salvation being secure, which it is, and to which they can never lose Scripture is clear as to their lifestyle, progressive sanctification, bearing fruit &c.
There are many on here who have poisoned the well so to speak in rejecting sound doctrine of evidence of conversion and have embraced the tenets of easy believe ism and decisional regeneration, that, as far as church history are concerned are new comers to the church, and are frankly false teachings. Many are deceived by this.
What is today derogatorily termed "Lordship Salvation" was the position of the church through the centuries. It embraced evidence of conversion, God's sanctifying work, salvation 100% of God, the gift of faith, inability of man to come to God &c. It rejected, rightfully so this newer free will decisionism brought forward by the likes of Robert Sandeman, Charles G. Finney and of course Pelagius.
Two books of late crystallized this schism in the body, one being The Grace Awakening and the other being The Gospel According to Jesus. The latter was lambasted because easy-believe-ism already had a firm grip in most churches and the true Gospel that was preached through the ages was to be rejected. People couldn't stand, especially here in the West, God being Sovereign in salvation via election, predestination &c. Man became sovereign, and it became up to him to save himself by making a decision. This was all popularized by Finney and so-called "The New Divinity."
But they are not the authority and many in here are in error concerning the doctrine. I've actually withstood some of their teachings on here concerning their understanding of teh Gospel, salvation, and osas.
Keep in mind many are indoctrinated by the false teachings of FGT which was basically founded by Lewis Sperry Chafer who also brought in the false dichotomy of disciple/believer. You will not see this taught by the early church because it is unbiblical. It is a centerpiece of easy-believe-ism and many have believed it not knowing its roots are recent and are not orthodox. Basically it is this: "I'm going to choose to go to heaven, hold the disciple thing, hold the sanctification thing, hold the evidence of new birth, holf the bearing fruit thing. Just heaven, nothing else. See ya later, God."
And there are many preachers, many, who will popishly declare them on their way to heaven.
From that I can understand your frustration, and I share in it, although I reject your teaching of loss of salvation.
I've noted what you've stated below but brother, you are in error there. I know what you're trying to say, and I appreciate your zeal to wanting others to live a holy life. Some, yes, depart from "the faith" not from salvation of truly knowing Christ as Savior, but from the system of belief, i.e. the faith, the teachings &c but these were never saved to begin with. They were always dogs, or hogs, and have returned to their ways publicly.
Think these things through, we are not as far off as one may think.
If you are honest, you can see what I am saying and that my position is quite a bit different than the antinomian osas group who believe a saved person can go on however they want with no evidence of conversion. This is contrary to biblical orthodoxy and Scripture.
I also hope, my friend, to retain you as such. I hope to see more of the grace of God stemming from myself, and you also toward others.
God bless you Stephen63.