While I was at the retreat, I started practicing Luke 9:23. I was told to take a sin from my confessed list, one at a time, and act like I was actually nailing it to a real cross. As I started doing this, I could actually see a little cross in the spirit realm. I don't know if this sounds weird, but I did this for 20 years whenever some sin came to mind.
Then, in 2020, I became very sensitive to the Lord and all my fear and insecurities that had plagued me my whole life were gone! I'm not afraid to die.
During the summer, I'd stand outside of my townhouse, playing my guitar and praising the Lord. I used to lead worship in church, but now I am free and can praise the Lord anywhere!
In 2004, I had a bad reaction to a medication that put me in a coma. My heart stopped and they couldn't start it again. As they were filling out my time of death, it started again.
Years later, I remembered that while I was dead, I saw Jesus in the New Jerusalem.
This is part of a song I wrote because of this hard time.
Alone in the dark, in pain and afraid,
I'd never felt so ripped apart.
This went on for years, and I ran out of tears
Then Jesus resurrected in my heart.
I died, He lives, and dwells inside of me
I am finally assured of eternity
He never left my side, not even when I died
He was with me in the dark...right by my side!
Faithful is His name! tc