One of my coworkers got fired today. She was the sweet Christian friend I had considered living with. She's quite upset, as am I. I was freaking out thinking maybe I was next. My supervisor got me from my desk and took me to a room, but he just wanted to discuss things as he knew we were friends. He wanted to make sure it didn't negatively affect my working relationship with him and wanted to answer any questions I had, and to tell me not to worry because I was doing just fine. I really appreciated that. He didn't discuss the reasons behind it, but I found out in other ways. I'm still sad they fired her, but it wasn't just because. Firing usually isn't.
Regardless, I had a mild anxiety attack today at work. I had to go into the public restroom and go into a stall and physically close my eyes and do breathing exercises. It was a bit scary, I've been anxious before but never really had an attack in the way that I did. I have GOT to have better outlets. I'm really hoping that when I get my pup that walking with her will help.
I'm excited about the upcoming changes (though some aspects still make me nervous), but change is change and still takes a toll. Especially when one internalizes stress the way I do.