Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[violakat]

I have decided that MissCris must take Jules place when it comes to changing Avatar pics. She has some really cool ones.

 

[Loveneverfails]

I always feel so weird when I wear makeup.

Right? I can usually get used to the lip color and eye makeup, but when I wear foundation I just feel like I have a mask on, and I'm scared of touching my face haha. I don't understand why this lady put so much dang foundation on me the first time. When she approached me she said "oh my gosh you have amazing skin! Looks like I can go light on the foundation!" I thought that was great, until I closed my eyes and felt her SLATHERING my face in coat after coat of foundation. When I was finally allowed to look in the mirror I was like "whoa lady. is this what you consider going LIGHT on foundation?" I made her redo it, but I understand that my definition of "light makeup" was probably not enough for such a formal occasion, so we compromised with medium coverage.

But seriously.. that first application of foundation, I'm pretty sure I could chisel away at it for hours before reaching my skin. Good grief!

 

[wisebeardman]

Anyone seen wisebeardman lately ? I haven't in a few days.....

he died or something.

 

[zeroturbulence]

he died or something.

I'm sure he'll show up sooner or later.

 

[wisebeardman]

I'm sure he'll show up sooner or later.

nope, gone he is.

 

[lil_christian]

nope, gone he is.

Aw, I'm sad to hear that.

 

[wwjd_kilden]

we'll have ghostbusters find him

 

[Pipp]

he died or something.

-____- you ain't even funny. Nice to see you alive.

 

[Searching4Truth]

My resentment is becoming obvious toward anyone I interact with. Well, as long as I don't directly insult anyone, I think I'll be fine.

 

[homwardbound]

I am happy that Billy Graham responded that way. Lovely smart man he is. If one of my children ever told me that they are gay, I would do just that love them.

And love is the fruit of the Spirit of God Sis
[h=1]Luke 6:32New International Version (NIV)[/h][SUP]32 [/SUP]“If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them.

Hardest thing for man to do is love one another no matter what in God's way as in 1 Cor 13:4-7. Oh wait a sec, man can't do this type of love only God can, and so when one receives this type of love it is not you, me or anyone else it is God that has imputed this to you or anyone that believes God. There is no more fight when one has received this by Faith in God's finished work for us through Son the Christ

 

[homwardbound]

I'm not going to pretend I wouldn't struggle if that was my reality. But if it were, I would hope that I'd just love as Christ did and does.

Tinten, Brother I think you would, just look at all you have faced and been taught not to overlook, rather accept, and every time you accepted you were healed true or false? God leads Brother and teaches us how to deal, we accept and just love trusting God to do through us what we find we can not do.
I was at one time in my life prejudice against and God taught me how to see differently, as Gods is teaching you and all who decide to beleive and trust God

 

[homwardbound]

I'm beginning to think Christianity isn't for me.

Maybe, at least the way you are being taught to believe, you might just be right about that. This world and people here in this world, do not truly Love you, as you are finding out, even though they claim God's love
For I found out that only God Loves in truth, and people that have their own agenda do love you if you fit in their agenda? As soon as they see they do not get anything from you, then they forsake you. Peter said he would never deny Christ, his dead Spirit was willing, but his flesh was weak and denied Christ three times. That is the power of carnal nature dead Spirit flesh Sister

Have you not been taught, to be good to get good? And are now frustrated, thinking you have tried, which you have and are at the end of this is not working out? Hearing the voices that say you ccan't be like those others, walk away, get angry, and many in your position have walked Sis, only to further demise, yet not seeing this as demise, rather the angel of light that is not light, gives you power, and you get money, fame, glory, prestige, and you are not attacked, feel freed, when in reality you are no longer a threat to the enemy
Devil, evil forces do not attack if not threatened?
So Praying you see this God the father is the only one righteous, and you are just a partaker in God righteousness that God gives you, not an imitator as is what you are taught to be and do. that you are seeing not only you can't do this, but those Holier that thou people as well
See through, all God Sister and you the participator in this amazing grace where by this you are made right with God and for you to not glory in self or others
Love you Sister, and trust God you will make it through the maze of and in this world you are in

 

[homwardbound]

Yes it is wrong to say all fantasy is bad just because it is fantasy. It is also just as wrong to say all fantasy is harmless because it is only fantasy. Stories shape worldview. It isn't much better to say that, oh since we know the authors of these fantasy novels were christian these are good fantasy but since this fantasy deals with certain topics and we don't know that the author is Christian it is bad fantasy.

So let's judge any work of fantasy by its content and effect on people. I haven't read any of the HP books so I can't speak to their content and won't try. However, by that girl's own admission her interest in Harry Potter was concurrent with her occultic involvement. Her keeping that stuff is like a sexually promiscuous person who is trying to start living a celibate life keeping her collection of romance novels or porn; it's just a really bad idea.

I won't clog this thread up with the positive impact LOTR and Narnia have had on my life, but I will say that there are several narnia scenes that define the way I think about certain aspects of character. The nature of faith, what it means to follow, and what courage and loyalty look like are all things I've learned from Narnia. But to be fair here, I've also learned a lot from Discworld (written by Sir Terry Pratchett) and the writings of Orson Scott Card.

And yes I know some Christians who tell me I shouldn't read Narnia because Lewis included characters based off of pagan deities and old ladies in my prayer group wouldn't go see LOTR because there was only one Lord and it had magic in it. but that's enough for this thread. We can start a new thread to discuss fantasy literature if we want.

Just commit all thy ways unto the Lord, ALL and Father will straighten out our paths, and we will learn much from any and all things.

 

[homwardbound]

My sister told me this morning that I live a charmed life. She said, "Everything comes easy for you, people are always rushing to your rescue, and you got all the good genes. How am I supposed to compete with that? It's easier for me to just not have to be around you."

This was in response to me calling her to ask if she'd want to help me put together a family party for my birthday next month. But she's been ignoring/avoiding me a lot lately, and I couldn't figure out why...I thought maybe she was just busy with her wedding plans (takes place at the end of August, a couple weeks after my birthday).

She's pretty upset with me. She told me it just figures that I would try to "trump" her wedding by having a get-together for my birthday.

What?!

I don't get all the bitterness towards me. She ended the conversation with "Just once, I'd like to see you fall flat on your face and not get back up. Then maybe you'd be more human."

I think this means I'm NOT invited to the wedding after all...?

I am super confused.

Sis, the grass is always greener across the street, and if greener it takes a bigger septic tank
Anyway a short tid bit, for you my older Brother the one that is still alive, reported this same type of thing to me, and he at that time was wealthy, married, kids, great paying job, all was right there for him, and he earned it, worked hard for it
One day I went with him on an emergency call for his Job. On the way he tells me how he was envious of me, and I replied with what?
I said you have a 250,000 dollar home, wife, kids and all is laid out perfectly for you. I travel from one place to the next, have no home, no wife, no kids, and you are Jealous of me? I am Jealous of you

So Sis don't know what to say except your Sis for some reason feels unimportant, kind of like Robert in "everybody loves Raymond" Ask God for God's words to be spoken through you as you did to Mom, and let her be shown no one is better that the other by God through you. maybe, you decide and thwart the enemy again that is the one planting these thoughts of Jealousy in her head
I was the and am me the baby of the Family of five, and was and am spoiled to the other two siblings left. I was treated as very special, spoiled little brat, I could get away with murder as is what they saw
Al, that is finally changed to see truth that, that was not true, so Sis, trust and go forth as led when led in peace to say to her what God through you wants to say, not what you feel to try to say, you will get through, not soon necessarily, yet soon. We are all that beleive in a fight, mthat we mi8ght need to learn the art of fighting without fighting you think?

 

[homwardbound]

Her jealousy reminds me of something Paul said in 1 Corinthians. I'm going to paraphrase. He said that everyone has gifts given by God, but some people want the "big" gifts. But he also said that they don't get why having the "big" gifts aren't as fun or easy as they look. She sees your talents as the "big" ones, whether they are or aren't.


It seems to me that she wants compensation for her hurts. She wants to shine brighter and receive attention because she thinks she wasn't noticed, or didn't get help/sympathy/ect, like she thought she deserved. Her reactions are also tell tale signs of how wounded she still is. I highly doubt it's because of you. She's allowing the infection to continue because that's what she's comfortable with. It's her choice to stay the same or change.



And her wedding could be in December, and you'd still be trying to upstage her. You aren't responsible for her thoughts or actions.

You are correct, the enemy in high places is that does the job of planting wrong thoughts to people that will receive them in the thoughts of not being noticed, not loved, not special, and the thoughts expand to it is because of?
And then the other that hears fights back with the same flesh thought attitudes and the fight deepens and worsens, this especially in Families, usually behind closed doors where no one admits to this going on, and therefore no healings take place for:

2 Corinthians 10:4
(for the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds

Ephesians 6:12
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

The battlefield is in the mind of each of us, and so we get to see what is what thanks to God by Son, and know the truth that is not true that our emotions try to convince us of, to be truth
So what your Sister is saying is truth to her at this point, even though in all reality it is not. Which I do know you see this and will trust God to say the right words to her through you or someone else to bring this unreal truth that she sees as truth as seeing it is not. So go in Faith, trust for it all to be worked out, rest in humility for her and to her

 

[homwardbound]

My uncle just sent an email to my mom that went something like this:

"WOWWWW SIS! I just saw some photos of your son on Facebook and he is SO handsome! Wow he looks like he should be an actor or singer or celebrity! Hes so talented and good looking!

...oh and Hallie is pretty too."

*sigh* this is NOT the first time this has happened either hahaha

Rest Sister no one is more special than another form the creator's view. God the Father of the Christ, we are all by Christ made as one together, not one above or lower than the other
So I know what I choose and am thankful for and that be God, who trumps all as like in the Spades games the "ACE" trumps all, God is my Ace and you?

 

[Fenner]

Right? I can usually get used to the lip color and eye makeup, but when I wear foundation I just feel like I have a mask on, and I'm scared of touching my face haha. I don't understand why this lady put so much dang foundation on me the first time. When she approached me she said "oh my gosh you have amazing skin! Looks like I can go light on the foundation!" I thought that was great, until I closed my eyes and felt her SLATHERING my face in coat after coat of foundation. When I was finally allowed to look in the mirror I was like "whoa lady. is this what you consider going LIGHT on foundation?" I made her redo it, but I understand that my definition of "light makeup" was probably not enough for such a formal occasion, so we compromised with medium coverage.

But seriously.. that first application of foundation, I'm pretty sure I could chisel away at it for hours before reaching my skin. Good grief!

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Make up artists always seem to put way to much on. Foundation is supposed to be a base for makeup, just to even out skin tone. I don't wear it much. I had a makeover once at a party my result, I looked awful, she put so much eyeshadow on me that I looked weird.

 

[didymos]

(...)
So I know what I choose and am thankful for and that be God, who trumps all as like in the Spades games the "ACE" trumps all, God is my Ace and you?

So THAT's what that Motörhead song is about!
I didn't take you for a metalhead at all...

 

[homwardbound]

I decided to write my sister a letter. Hand-written, and snail-mailed. That way, she can read it in a couple days once she's cooled down, and she can respond (or not respond) however she sees fit.

I had to pray a lot before/during writing it...I didn't want to end up bringing up past painful events and actions. This letter...yeah, not about my pain or ways she's hurt me.

What it did contain...

I told her how I used to sneak into her room when we were little, to look at all her cool stuff. Sometimes I stole it...I told her I'm sorry. I told her how confusing it was for me that she's my "half sister" (different dad), because all I knew was that she was MY sister, and that she made the best pancakes, and had the best jewelry, and the best mischievous ideas.

I reminded her how I use to always try to tag along with her and her friends- I did it because she was COOL. I wanted to be around her. I wanted to dress like she did and listen to the same music and just be part of her world.

I told her, for the first time ever, how beautiful I thought she was in her junior prom dress. I told her how she'd made me feel safe and loved when our parents would fight. How when I had bad dreams, I would go curl up on the floor by her bed rather than running to our mom.

I told her how scared and worried I was for her when she left home, how I missed her and prayed for her and tried to get mom to stop being angry with her.

I told her that I'm sorry that I ran to her with so many petty problems when I knew she was going through so much of her own pain, her own hell. I told her that I never knew how to help her, because she seemed so strong and independent, but I thought if nothing else, I could at least stay close, make her laugh. I couldn't give her advice the way she could for me, I never had solutions for her troubles, all I knew to do was be THERE, in case...for some reason...she needed me.

I told her that I'm sorry for hurting her in the past- and I know I have, and sometimes I meant to...but mostly I didn't. Mostly, I was so focused on my own dramas that I probably still don't know the extent of the pain I caused her.

And I asked her...to forgive me. To let go of the past and let me start fresh with her from where, and who, we are now.

I don't know when, or if she'll respond. I hope that she does. Even if she's angry, I hope she calls or writes back and reads me the riot act- at least that would be a start, you know?

I am so elated Sis that you are listening to God, and doing as led inspite of anyone else's anger, including your own, that is the fruit of God's Spirit in love regardless and with out arrodance
Love it, you told truth and are free because of it, the ball is in her court, and she will respond, just as you said do not expect to be good, might call with a fight, and then it up to you to just listen letting her get it all out

 

[homwardbound]

Does anyone else feel that when they read a book, they devour the knowledge that comes from it and collects it like one would collect coins to put into a piggy bank? Reserve it, mull it over, allow it to change you, even in the smallest way?

several books that I have read did this to me, the one that did this to me the most, is called "the prince of the house of David" and is out of print, But was so awesome to me, as when reading I was literally there, in Spirit it was wow!!!!!!!!!!!