That’s honest of you to share.
I still find myself drawn to some secular music I grew up on—bands like Metallica included. There’s something raw and emotionally real in their sound that a lot of Christian music just doesn’t match sometimes. But here’s the thing: I’ve learned to pay attention to how that music affects my spirit.
For me, it’s not just about what I listen to—it’s about what it stirs in me. Does it feed my walk with God? Or does it pull me back into old mindsets?
I’ve found that the deeper I’ve gone in my faith, the more I want music that reflects the struggle and the redemption. That’s actually why I started writing my own songs—Christian music with emotional depth, dark tones, and real honesty. Because God meets us in all of it, even in the heavy stuff.
Not judging anyone’s playlist—just sharing how God’s been reshaping mine.
While I deeply respect traditional hymns and sometimes still enjoy them, I’ll be honest—they often feel bland or emotionally disconnected for me. I’ve lived through a lot: trauma, addiction, deep pain. When I worship, I want to bring everything before God—not just polished lyrics in a major key.
We’re told in Psalm 98:4 to “make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise.” That’s not genre-limited. That’s passion. That’s sound driven by heart.
I believe worship isn’t about sounding pretty—it’s about truth. It’s about bringing our full selves, scars and all, before a holy God. Sometimes that comes out as a soft hymn. But sometimes it comes out as a cry, a roar, a blast of drums and electric guitars. I don’t see that as rebellion—I see it as real.
To me, rock and metal are just instruments. The devil doesn’t own distortion. If I use these tools to glorify Christ, to express my story of redemption, then I’m honoring Him with the voice He gave me.
We each connect with God in different ways. And for some of us, that deeper connection happens when the music finally matches the weight of the testimony.