Believe it or not there is much I had to leave out to try to keep it rated pg and I have seen those who have had it much worse than even me. I never understood why life seemed to have it out for me from birth even people in my life seemed to just cause damage to me or abandon me or never listen to me. Just to know what it was like to be cared about just to matter just to know what it is like to actually be loved this is what brought me to him I was in bed one night crying and just out of desperation said to him to please show me he was real just so I could know I was not all alone in this life.
I woke up in a pure white place standing next to father himself there was this massive river of rainbow colors so vivid and beautiful I was pouring tears I have never seen beauty that did that to me before he said to me this river was his plan and I could only keep saying to him thank you for showing me this over and over again.
Even this wasn't enough to bring me to him but it was the spark
I have always been a stubborn a child but that also means I put up a fight I honestly don't know how to give up and trust me sometimes I wished I knew how. But my friend no suffering is not in your future not all are called to suffer and the time ofg suffering is nearing it's end anyways.
Like you I discovered the hidden wonders of worship true worship in spirit and truth, the life that flows in it how it turns you into a giddy kid bouncing up and down unable to not dance for him unable to give him enough honor and praise to the point where you just shoot it up with everything in you
This was when he said to me this is thge key to open the floodgates, it all goes into the great unknown after that they mystery and wonder.
Like you I write poems with him I have a thread called a thread of Blain's psalms where he usually says pick up your pen I never know what I am going to write until I start and then words just pour out on their own so much I have to try to type as fast as I can.
And like you I have been given such precious treasures from him hidden beaities and secrets of him his kingdom and us and that is actually why I came back on here after so long he called me his little spark
I woke up in a pure white place standing next to father himself there was this massive river of rainbow colors so vivid and beautiful I was pouring tears I have never seen beauty that did that to me before he said to me this river was his plan and I could only keep saying to him thank you for showing me this over and over again.
Even this wasn't enough to bring me to him but it was the spark
I have always been a stubborn a child but that also means I put up a fight I honestly don't know how to give up and trust me sometimes I wished I knew how. But my friend no suffering is not in your future not all are called to suffer and the time ofg suffering is nearing it's end anyways.
Like you I discovered the hidden wonders of worship true worship in spirit and truth, the life that flows in it how it turns you into a giddy kid bouncing up and down unable to not dance for him unable to give him enough honor and praise to the point where you just shoot it up with everything in you
This was when he said to me this is thge key to open the floodgates, it all goes into the great unknown after that they mystery and wonder.
Like you I write poems with him I have a thread called a thread of Blain's psalms where he usually says pick up your pen I never know what I am going to write until I start and then words just pour out on their own so much I have to try to type as fast as I can.
And like you I have been given such precious treasures from him hidden beaities and secrets of him his kingdom and us and that is actually why I came back on here after so long he called me his little spark