Under one of your Living4Him names, you posted a long list of critiques of me, saying that my best course of action would be to follow all of your instructions -- which is perfectly fine. This is the internet, and that's to be expected. And I only mention this because it was in the public threads -- I wouldn't bring it up if it were in private.
But you also specifically stated that you would not listen to anything I had to say in return. Again, I understand this. That's why I love writing, and that's why I write threads that are meant to be interactive -- no one is trapped here, and people can walk away or ignore whatever segments they choose. But everyone can also choose to have a voice.
That is not even remotely true, but that is what I had hoped to discuss with you privately. Seeing how you obviously are okay with addressing it publicly, I will try one last time to reason with you.
Admittedly, I did make a VERY POORLY WORDED post about you in the past. Also, in fairness to you, I can certainly understand why you interpreted it in the manner that you did, but, with God as my Witness (just ask him yourself), my intent was totally misconstrued. Basically, what I was attempting to say back then was this:
As I have already mentioned, I have left here every time because I felt that I was just spinning my wheels. At the same time, however, there were reasons why I stayed here as long as I did. One of those reasons, as I already stated in my initial response, was because of my private interactions with people. As important a reason as that was, it was not the only reason why I stayed. I also stayed because, at times, other people's posts ministered to me. At times, those posts were your posts. In other words, at times you would post threads that were move devoted to God's word, helping people, ministering to people, etc., etc., etc. For me, personally, I loved those types of posts. At other times, you would post on more playful topics, and, although there is absolutely nothing wrong with them, I simply prefer the other types of posts because, again, they truly ministered to me. When I made the VERY POORLY WORDED post that obviously offended you, all that I was trying to say was that, at that time, your posts about God were the only remaining things that were keeping me here. When you briefly stopped making them, I had no other reason for staying. In other words, whereas I meant my comments to be complimentary in that those types of posts ministered to me, because I so VERY POORLY WORDED it, you felt as if I was somehow condemning or judging you for your other types of posts. Again, with God as my Witness (just ask him yourself), that was never my intent.
That truly stated, that is why I did not bother to read all of your massive rebuke of me (I did read some of it). Granted, I understood why you were upset, but your rebuke was totally unwarranted in my eyes because I never really stated or meant what you were rebuking me for.
Anyhow, that is in the past, but I did not want to leave without attempting to clarify that one last time.
In a PM, I would feel as if you would want to tell me all about your perspective, but would have no interest or value in mine. The most important thing to you would be you expressing your feelings and experience to me, which I understand, but I would have no way of sharing my side in return, because you could easily just disappear without ever hearing my side.
Wow. Just wow. Obviously, you do not truly know me at all because I would never do such a thing, nor even consider doing such a thing. I already explained to you why I did not read your full rebuke in the past. If you choose to believe otherwise, then there is nothing that I can ever say to change your mind. I would simply ask, once again, that you ask God for his perspective on the matter. He knows that I am telling the truth.
Two last things:
1. I wanted to have this discussion privately because I did not want to possibly come across as being disrespectful to you, and especially not in one of your own threads. Whether you believe it or not, I am a respectful gentleman, and this massive disagreement/misunderstanding aside, I still do respect you as a person, and I want both you and your friends here to know that.
2. This is something else that I wanted to say to you privately, but I obviously have no other choices but to say it publicly or to leave it unsaid. Although it was not in a "flirting" manner, you are one of my past experiments. In other words, I did post here very briefly under a different username in the past, and I honestly cannot recall what username that was, but I do recall that I had a watchman on a tower as my avatar. Seoul, you liked me, the real me, as that poster, and you even left me a rose emoji when I deactivated that account. Anyhow, I did not reveal my identity to you at that time because I felt bad about our previous disagreement/misunderstanding, and, if nothing else, I had the brief opportunity of being your friend, and not your enemy.
I have said enough.
Out of respect for you, I will stick around to give you a chance to respond, and then I will ask the moderators here to deactivate my account.
If you remember nothing else from this post, then I hope that you will simply ask God if what I have testified here is the truth or not. Obviously, you doubt my integrity, but I trust that you know that he will never lie to you. Just ask him. I honestly never meant you any harm or disrespect. Not then, and certainly not now.
I wish you nothing but the best in Christ.
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