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I started being a jerk for the wrong reasons. I ignored her and treated her like she was not there. I was a jerk.
My friend who checks the weight of the chickens asked if i was ok and said we will talk later ok? Im sure you know what it is.
I cant remwmber if this was before or after lunch. I was at the time clock and seen her run into the bathroom. I am such a jerk, she treated me like i was not there, i am a tota jerk.
I waited around after my shift to speak to my friend and to ask her if i really am measing up. I could not find her, but i went into the cafeteria and the girl was there at the microwave.
So, i patted her arm she looked the other way where i was patting and looked the other and jumped.
I askes her if there is no dbone tonight she said no. She had me try a snack that she said was from her country, kinda like a funnel cake. Without the sugar.
She asked if it was good i said yes. She had me follow her and she said sit. Im sure it was her brother and dad due to they look alike in alot of ways.
They were playing cards and she was seeing if i was eating the snack, i was nervous and did not jnow how to act.
So i sucked it up and ate the snack and watched them and payed attention to how they were playing.
The elderly guy we call poppy, he pointed at me and said somethomg in a different language. And i felt like put crud.
But i started to laugh with them and wnjoy myself, i stopped feeling like such a jerk little by little.
Then i started to think as she kept looking at me and smiling. This girl is not after to hirt me, why did i let that stuff bother me? From what i saw as i remember she did not do anytjing out of the way.
Then it hit me, it was that guys reaction giving me the evil look like he didnt want me there around her. THAT is why i startes going crazy, it was not her it was HIM!
Oh man i felt like such a heel. Anyway it feels as if she understands but holds nothing againat me when she noticed my leg in a spot and moved hers close and kept it there next to mine.
I was wondering if it was by mistake but no she kept it there . When she was lwaving she asked if i was waiting all i did was shake my head yes in shame.
And she said "i go". And i got up she turned around waved and smiled at me.
She has such a forgiving heart. And i can tell her family means the world to her.
It seems i mever thought bout tapping her on the arm, but i did. Im usually shy in a bad wat, but i did it.
I wached that guy and her reaction with each pther and they were sepeated.
I guess my friend wanted to tell me im stupid. And i am, when the girl ran into the bathroom my heart sank so low it effected my job badly.
She was about to throw away some trusses for the chicken i kindly got them from her and threw them away for her before i left the floor.
We locked eyes once and just stared at each other a few moments.
I am a idiot, it is mot fair to punish her where my exs failed. I am a man who had it all wrong. What is up with that?
She saw i was nervous 😩 ans tired ahe kept looking at me and smiling.
I haft to do this harder to not mess up again, all i wanted to do is hug her and say im sorry.
My friend who checks the weight of the chickens asked if i was ok and said we will talk later ok? Im sure you know what it is.
I cant remwmber if this was before or after lunch. I was at the time clock and seen her run into the bathroom. I am such a jerk, she treated me like i was not there, i am a tota jerk.
I waited around after my shift to speak to my friend and to ask her if i really am measing up. I could not find her, but i went into the cafeteria and the girl was there at the microwave.
So, i patted her arm she looked the other way where i was patting and looked the other and jumped.
I askes her if there is no dbone tonight she said no. She had me try a snack that she said was from her country, kinda like a funnel cake. Without the sugar.
She asked if it was good i said yes. She had me follow her and she said sit. Im sure it was her brother and dad due to they look alike in alot of ways.
They were playing cards and she was seeing if i was eating the snack, i was nervous and did not jnow how to act.
So i sucked it up and ate the snack and watched them and payed attention to how they were playing.
The elderly guy we call poppy, he pointed at me and said somethomg in a different language. And i felt like put crud.
But i started to laugh with them and wnjoy myself, i stopped feeling like such a jerk little by little.
Then i started to think as she kept looking at me and smiling. This girl is not after to hirt me, why did i let that stuff bother me? From what i saw as i remember she did not do anytjing out of the way.
Then it hit me, it was that guys reaction giving me the evil look like he didnt want me there around her. THAT is why i startes going crazy, it was not her it was HIM!
Oh man i felt like such a heel. Anyway it feels as if she understands but holds nothing againat me when she noticed my leg in a spot and moved hers close and kept it there next to mine.
I was wondering if it was by mistake but no she kept it there . When she was lwaving she asked if i was waiting all i did was shake my head yes in shame.
And she said "i go". And i got up she turned around waved and smiled at me.
She has such a forgiving heart. And i can tell her family means the world to her.
It seems i mever thought bout tapping her on the arm, but i did. Im usually shy in a bad wat, but i did it.
I wached that guy and her reaction with each pther and they were sepeated.
I guess my friend wanted to tell me im stupid. And i am, when the girl ran into the bathroom my heart sank so low it effected my job badly.
She was about to throw away some trusses for the chicken i kindly got them from her and threw them away for her before i left the floor.
We locked eyes once and just stared at each other a few moments.
I am a idiot, it is mot fair to punish her where my exs failed. I am a man who had it all wrong. What is up with that?
She saw i was nervous 😩 ans tired ahe kept looking at me and smiling.
I haft to do this harder to not mess up again, all i wanted to do is hug her and say im sorry.
