You know as long as I can remember no matter what I did or which way I took in life my life never seemed to be in my control and it got me wondering if God knew every move I ever made or would make then maybe that means everything I did was going to do anyways anything I am going to do I was going to do anyways every sin every good deed every choice predistined and written before I was even born
maybe if everything was indeed predestined then maybe that is why he could love a sinner like me a screw up because he already knew the mistakes I was going to make and loves me anyways. in a way free will seems to be an illusion pre destination ruling over my story but this makes me wonder if this is all the more reason to trust him and not beat myself up over the mistakes I made or will make because I was always going to make them and yet he loves me unconditionally anyways
if anything there seems to be only one choice that I feel like I made for myself and tghat was surrendering to him and begging him to come into my heart perhaps I was always going to do this but it feels to me the only actual say I had in my life
maybe if everything was indeed predestined then maybe that is why he could love a sinner like me a screw up because he already knew the mistakes I was going to make and loves me anyways. in a way free will seems to be an illusion pre destination ruling over my story but this makes me wonder if this is all the more reason to trust him and not beat myself up over the mistakes I made or will make because I was always going to make them and yet he loves me unconditionally anyways
if anything there seems to be only one choice that I feel like I made for myself and tghat was surrendering to him and begging him to come into my heart perhaps I was always going to do this but it feels to me the only actual say I had in my life