Thank you so much for sharing. I've struggled since puberty about my weight as well and have similarly kept a body weight at about a hundred ten and I'm 5 foot 2 and loved it when I was doing drugs that I got below a hundred. Sounds like we're very alike except I'm just shorter than you. I'm sure we have our personality differences as well. Thank you for sharing seriously, it's nice to know that I'm not alone. I don't have many friends now, I don't drink, do drugs, smoke cigarettes. I keep to myself mostly and feeling pretty lonely so I came on to this site in hopes of having some decent human interaction. My family for the most part are non Christians who accept homosexuality and honestly, it really bothers me. I am starting to feel like people think that I'm evil or mean because I don't like that way and trust me, I love all of my gay friends I just hate that lifestyle because I feel my soul is longing for something else. I don't know whether I should just give up or keep on having faith because it just seemed so hopeless sometimes. My sister is still using crystal meth and so many people are struggling with this addiction. And even without drugs, there is obesity and pornography and so many other things that get in the way of us living an amazing existence in God's Earth. In Revelations he says to let the vile be vile and the holy be holy. It's difficult for me to let ones I care for be vile when I care about them. Why would I want to let them destroy themselves? I know I'm not on the best terms with God, I am a repenting woman, I pray that he will have mercy on me, I am not a saint. What are your thoughts on a big change that might allow the holy ones to inhabit the Earth and everyone else gets to die off? The ones who are worthy to enjoy life without having to see so much misery around them and pretend like things are okay when it just eats them up inside? I hope there is a day that the Earth can be that way.
Thank you for the reminder on portion control. I have been struggling with that recently. After quitting alcohol and cigarettes, my vice has been junk food. So, I really think I'm going to try to do that whole portion control thing. Do you mind giving me an example of a meal that you eat and the amount?
Wow. Thank you so much for sharing. You said a lot about many deep and often disturbing problems. I'm not shy or homophobic by modern traditions. Don't be shocked if I respond frankly and sincerely to what you have shared. Here goes;
I think many people don't expect sexual inclinations to be gone after The Lord returns, I do. And the roots of most addictions including sexual, substance abuse, food even video games are often the result of what many of us call H.A.L.T. that stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely and Tired. They are often a relief or distraction from the depression, despair and monotony of life and an escape from life on life's terms. And many do not understand that Homosexuality is a sin of the flesh like much adultery, drunkenness and lying. The pro gay agenda places desires of the flesh above needs of the spirit and would rather serve their genitals than God. (who made them.)
It's a bohemian, hedonistic attitude that is engulfing society. With popular approval that thinks if it feels good it's ok to do it. We know better. It's OK to feel repulsed by their behavior. I feel it is more normal than accepting it. People who are self rightous at church but have not empathy for the lost and the sick, I feel have a spiritual void that they should seek the Lord and His Holy Spirit to fill.
We must be born again, not of the flesh. If you can stand to witness to them out of kindness and compassion by all means do. If their sin makes you so angry it causes you to sin or hate. Get away, no harm no foul. We are the bride of Christ. He washes us white as snow.
I was the first on my Mothers side of the family to abandon the holy baloney of sacramental and dogmatic worship, symbolism, tradition, and prayer to Mary, Saints, statues, angels and other false nonsense. They urged me to turn back from being born again and ask a priest to forgive me.
About eating. Because it gives me pleasure more than fasting I tend to over do it sometimes but not to the point that I would consider it an eating disorder. So most of what I know about comes only from reading and/or observation. I feel underqualified. Keep comming back.
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