Hi, I am a new member here.
I have contemplated suicide in the past because my life was really horrible. I prayed so much and yet it was so, so bad.
I knew self-murder was a sin, but that didn't stop me.
I was so unsure.
I ended up on a testimony of Tamara Laroux -- a woman who shot herself and went to Hell, and it scared me.
I don't want to be separated from God or His Holy Spirit, especially permanently; that is the worst thing that can possibly happen. And far worse than even that. Because God is a shield. I realise He is everything good -- that he makes everything good possible -- and that when you're separated from Him, there is absolutely nothing good about it. It may seem like it here on earth because the wicked in this life, will prosper for perhaps the length of their life here on earth, but if your life for some reason ends suddenly, you will beg to die within minutes when you end up in a ceaseless realm of eternal torment by beings far more evil than the most evil people here on earth (the cartel, communist nutjobs like Joseph Stalin and the more recent Kim Jong Un, the Osama bin Laden's); it's evil so bad, it has to exist only in another realm in order to sustain itself because God and His Holy Spirit are completely absent from there unlike here on earth (2 Thessalonians 1:9) where the presence of God and His priceless Holy Spirit exist to various extents in those that follow God's teachings and
Don't do it to yourself, God doesn't send people to Hell. You make that choice all yourself, and when you're there, you're there (1 Cor 15:50) because your body will be separated from the possibiity of everything good which is from God, and from The Almighty Himself -- what and Who you want to look for to get you out of this momentary dark area in your life, provided you're saved only by the blood of God's son as only He can save (Colossians 1:22).