I learn more on how to love everyday and I am miles ahead of where I was when I didn’t know Christ nor love. I’m still no where close to loving as He loves.
Haven’t given everything to the poor that’s for sure. Giving to the poor nowadays can be tricky. What is poor for starters? I guess it all depends on the society that they are in. A poor person in the states would be rich in other parts of the world. Another question is why are they poor? More than likely being poor isn’t their problem. Being poor is just a symptom of a problem. Drugs, gambling, irresponsible spending, criminal record, or pure laziness can often be the problem. So giving to the poor in those occasions would be giving them a job or rehab tuition. The best thing we can do no matter the situation is share Jesus with them and show them love. Talk to them and find the root problem. Giving them money is no different from the doctors these days handing out drugs to treat symptoms without fixing the cause of the symptoms.
I used to have a typical man's heart until after I met the Lord again I asked Him, Teach me how to love people the way that you love me? And I'm not sure if I regret that or not because within 24 hours I had the most obnoxious guy in the neighborhood as my friend. I had no idea who he was but I found out quick! It made sense to me because that's what they did to Jesus so I knew I had to try, and I did try. One weekend I invited him over for a bbq. I had steaks on the grill cooking for us, and...he starts talking smack to me and about me! Who does that?! You don't walk into a man's house and talk smack about the host of the BBQ! I threw him out and he didn't get no steak. I knew as soon as he left that I failed that test! About a month later he had a stroke and is now paralyzed and blinded from it and they moved him to some home somewhere. I felt bad for basically failing him when he needed me. But I just couldn't get through to the guy about the Lord. He'd say, God does His thing, and I do my thing...talk about something else...
I may have failed leading him to the Lord...but I think I now know how Jesus must feel because most people on earth feel like that guy did. So it was a love lesson for sure but I should have still fed him. I did not love the guy for being obnoxious but I sure was concerned for him a month later. So I perceive a change in my heart. Walking in the Spirit affects you!
I noticed other things too. I actually wept during a movie for the first time in a particularly good movie. I didnt expect that and have never been like that. I used to tease my (ex)-wife about crying in movies. I guess she had more heart than me back then? But I'm learning. That's largely what the Lord has been teaching me is about Love so it's a part of the Romans 12:2 transformation that it speaks of. When we do what the book says to do, it changes us on the inside and we might react differently than we used to because of these changes. Becoming more holy is largely impossible for man. But! The Lord isnt looking for perfection. He looks for the intent the heart. Is he trying? Is he trying to hang out and spend time with the Lord?
I thought about that and I realized that I'd get up in the morning read and pray, then go to work. So God was getting minutes? Not fair! So I started inviting Him to go to work with me and I would talk to Him all day long. I discovered I could hear Him better.
Hanging out with the Lord God leaves a residue on you. Remember, Moses spent 40 days on the mountain with God, and Moses was glowing when he came back down! He had to wear a veil! This is the oil from the 10 Virgins' Parable, it is the Holy Spirit, the very essence of God. Each believer must spend time one on one with God to buy their own oil.
It's not hard to spend the day with the Lord. To be led by the Spirit. It takes a conscious awareness that, you have your best friend and helper with you and even scripture says He will never leave us or forsake us so He is going to be there whether you like it or not!
There has never been a moment of actual Privacy on this planet. So it's just a matter of getting used to it. At first when I invited Him to work with me, I'd leave him in the truck at the Customers house but I got over that when I needed Him one day, and He fixed it too!