Let me get this out here. I've been a Christian for 13 years, since I was 17 years old. I was raised in the faith. I know my Bible. I had a good loving family. Nothing traumatic. Pretty decent life.
However, one consistent thing I have a problem with in my faith that I've never been able to get over is God's so-called "grace." I don't think people know the implications of it. The logic is that we're all sinners. Nothing is unforgiveable. The problem I have with this is that it means the most evil of monsters (I refuse to refer to them as human beings, they've forfeited that right) such as rapists, serial killers, and pedophiles have a shot at being in heaven.
And you know what? That is NOT a heaven I wanna be in! I see all these people praising Jeffrey Dahmer's so-called "conversion," and it is absolutely DISGUSTING!!!
I do NOT wanna worship a God who endorses this!!! And don't gimme that "oh, we're all sinners!" NOT ALL SIN IS EQUAL, AND EVERY RATIONAL PERSON KNOWS THAT!!!
I think I understand your angst over other people doing others wrong as said about that in Pedeophiles and rapists cases.
God is definitely against people taking away other peoples free will. And God will choose who gets in and who do not, as I see you do believe too, yet are angst, mad, angry over people that harm other people, Amen to you in that to. to do that yourself, Amen.
I see to pray for them, to trust God to make the call as God Father knows best what to choose for each person period. Seeing what Son did on that cross willingly went to death without a fight back. Leaving us the people the free choice to choose to believe God or not in his risen Son Jesus or not! To ask God for the new life offered in his risen Son to teach us new and be new in love to all. Does that mean to be a door-mat?
God forbid, it means to stand up for the truth in the risen Son for you, where you are changed from the first born flesh death to God Father's Spirit and truth for you too.
To, be aware, wise as a serpent, I agree, yet remember to remain harmless as a dove (Matthew 10:16-20, Luke 21:14-15)
Not easy, especially since you have gotten harmed or others you love here on earth have got harmed by those wrong doers too.
God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah over the people there, that would not allow free choice. The same with the Egyptians, would not allow free choice.
The perplexity of all this, I see to trust God all in all and thank God for whatever has, might or is happening right now.
Looking at Saul who became Paul, the transformation, amazing as I hope for those others get this truth too, thank you