How would you feel when visiting a church and after worship the pastor steps on stage and begins to pray fervently saying in this room for anyone with back pain be healed, start moving in ways that would normally hurt.
I wasn't healed but if I'm honest I doubt not that God can heal but the concept of demanding it. After all it is God's will.
Other Christians will say it is by faith that we are healed. As Jesus once said by your faith the blind man was healed.
So let's discuss this. Is it by faith, God's will, a calling to heal, or a mixture of the three making the gift of healing prevalent today?
Maybe I lacked enough faith as I wasn't expecting to be healed and wasn't there looking to be healed. Maybe the pastor lacks the calling. Or God simply said no or not yet.
What are your thoughts?
Some people have hardly any mental strongholds in their minds. I have noticed that it's often easier for non christians to recieve healing because they aren't hoarded by religious doctrine or accountable for renewing their minds yet.
I know for me i didn't recieve healing until i started to operate from a different foundation using my mind/imagination as evidence instead of the physical. I think i told you in another post how i imagined myself better and how i kept simulating it in my mind over and over then trying it in the natural day by day and eventually it proved itself right and i was healed. When the healing came it wasn't even an amazing miracle or felt like some glorious transition from sick to healed, i almost didn't recognize it, it was more like "here's some support for what you've already believed".... I think it's because you're mind and life are not already accepting or open to recieve it, it can make it hard. It's like if you have been struggling with a disease for years that's also years of mentally conforming your imagination to the sickness. I know some people who are so conformed to their diseases that they identify as them and any other life for them would be impossible.
Consider blind Bartimaeus, he threw off his identity (that blind persons cloak/coat) before running up to Jesus, because that's who he was "blind Bartimaeus" but he was ready to be someone else.
You can heal, it's just changing your mind and habits that might be hard, especially if you're commited to thinking and living to pain in your mind.
I remember when i was sick i pretty much went through the same things you did, asking for prayer nothing happened,prayed for myself nothing again. Tried to make myself extra righteous and clean and noble but nope, tried sinning extra hard to get Gods attention but nope again. I honestly felt abandoned and like the lyrics to the song called God is a Strangely Absent Father by Assemblage 23.
For some reason i just got it in my mind to just imagine living healed and simulating it day by day, to be honest it seemed like idiotic pretending and i did it obediently but sarcastically for 3 days before i started to notice subtle changes, not in the physical but in my spirit or something. Slowly the thoughts became more and more acceptable and when i was healed on the 5th day i almost didn't recognize it.
Hebrews 11 1 says that faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen. Faith in a nutshell is your imagination or at best it's using your imagination/mind which is unseen as it's foundation. Hebrews 11:6 But without faith
it is impossible to please
him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and
that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. ....I took that as to work on my mind first and then He can fill in the gaps, and He did. It's like if i can conform myself/mind and life to the truth of your healing i'll be able to better accept/recieve it because praying over and over again just wasn't working.