I've been a believer for many years and have walked away from my faith several times - although I returned; yet still I question. I know that down through the ages theologians have wrestled the deep unanswered questions such as suffering and promises that don't seem true.
Have you ever hit the wall with your faith? If so how did you move past it?
I know this isn't a nice topic and many believers gloss over it. I always avoided the Book of Job - but it is in the Bible.
I've never stopped believing but like many, I wondered about the same issues. I had an especially difficult time once. I blamed God for a situation that seemed to be His will but was a disaster. After 50 years in the Lord, I've quit wrestling with God. Jacob was nowhere near as stubborn as I was. These are the conclusions I've come to.
1. God is good. All the time. My perception is flawed and I see things from the wrong perspective and without understanding.
2. God is love. The cross shows how much God hates sin. The cross shows how much God loves sinners
3. God is wise. He sees what we do not and He knows how to resolve issues when we are clueless
4. God is powerful. God can do what He promises, even when it seems impossible.
5. God is dependable. He is faithful to all His promises. If we struggle to accept this, refer to points 1-4
6. God is patient. What human ruler would put up with such rebellion and arrogance of his subjects?
7. God is judge. Everyone will get to face God and be forced to account for their lives. How much better to be forgiven, justified, acquitted and declared righteous before that day!
8. God will prevail. The much mentioned Job said that the plan and purpose of God cannot be thwarted.
People rave on about sin and the law and how bad it is to break the sabbath and such. You may think this is heresy, but God does not care that much about such trivia. There is a sin worse than speeding, lusting after the near naked women on the beach or lying on your tax return. The greatest evil is doubt and unbelief. Doubt and unbelief is a slur on the very nature of God and is straight from the pit of hell. Satan planted this seed in Eve's mind and she accepted it. Adam went along with her folly and the rest is the wretched history of humanity.
Whatever battle you face, whatever troubles you in life, however little you understand what you are going through, you may be sure that it's not God's fault. He's done everything necessary to reverse the blight that Adam brought on himself and his descendants. There is always a reason for our troubles. "Where did I go wrong?" is a great prayer. And God will show you, if you ask in humility and with respect. And you will see the salvation of God, if you will keep your heart right before Him.