Let me show you something that can help you see the wonder of God's Grace.
Now, i give you the benefit of the doubt that you born again, and not just water baptized, being told that "the water washed away your sin".
So, if that happened to you, then you are water baptized, and nothing else..
Here is the thing,
On the day you trusted Christ and God took your faith as..."faith is counted as righteousness", God KNEW That DAY, of every sin you would commit later, and all the days that you were cold to God, that would happen after you were saved.
He knew all that, about you, and He saved you anyway.
He saved you anyway, Jerry, knowing of your sinning and other issues that you would do later.
Why?
Why would God save you, KNOWING that later, you would break commandments, willfully sin, and sometimes just not be concerned about God, .....?????
Why?
Because God understands that His Blood that Is Christ on the Cross, and His Death, which is Christ on The Cross.......has more power to keep you saved than you have the means by lifestyle to lose your salvation.
Notice Romans 4:8..........PAUL teaches that God does not charge your sin to you, ever again, if you are born again.
Notice that Paul teaches the REASON...... = Romans 5:20.....>"where sin abounds GRACE more abounds"..
= where sin is found GRACE is greater than your sin.
Welcome to your salvation. Its a GIFT.