Hi there Jemma! Welcome, welcome, welcome!
My two cents: If trying to get your life back on track, you can do so by turning to Christ for his Spiritual Circumcision of the Heart. Ask Him to remove the Curse that was beset us all in the Garden of Eden, via the unholy work of Adam and Eve. Here is a description of the Holy Operation of Christ, per the NLT. If you like the KJV, that translation is unbelievable as well.
Jesus isn't just a Healer, but a Holy Surgeon!
Colossians 2:10-15 NLT - "So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority. 11 When you came to Christ, you were "circumcised," but not by a physical procedure. Christ performed a spiritual circumcision--the cutting away of your sinful nature. 12 For you were buried with Christ when you were baptized. And with him you were raised to new life because you trusted the mighty power of God, who raised Christ from the dead. 13 You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins. 14 He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. 15 In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross."
By turning to Christ for His exclusive operation, He will get your life back on track for you, for He will give you the Effectual, Indwelling Holy Spirit Who will cause you to obey. Here is the Old Testament Promise of God Himself:
Ezekiel 36:25-27 KJV - "Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you. 26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them."