I feel like I am a horrible person, I hate my neighbor’s dogs, they have too much and they wander all around the streets, pooping everywhere, they bark and howl all morning, afternoon and night time and the owners doesn’t even bother to care for them, It’s non-stop, and I feel like killing them and shooting all of them just to shut them up. I confess and admit that I am not an animal lover but I don’t “hate” animals but these dogs are impossible.
I also don’t have any tolerance for people who are “Ms & Mr know it all”, people who are pretentious and arrogant. I often roll my eyes In disbelief right in front of them.
I feel that the love that I have is very limited and no room for difficult people that are hard to love, I always pray to God to give me a new heart to accommodate them, as I know I am not perfect too who also sins but still God chose to love me and show me mercy, so I also long for that kind of love.
I used to be a chain smoker during college days, I often used up a pack or more a day until my body rejects it every time I try to smoke, that’s when I started to quit smoking, I really can not do it, so everyday I prayed and asked for the holy spirit to help me and he did. That was 15 years ago, but last year 2019 I started to occasionally smoke again and thankfully God made me realized how he helped me through the last time I did it, so I decided to stop it right away.
I used to drink during college days, now
My alcohol tolerance is very high, there was one time I came out to have drinks with friends, we all have the same amount of drinks and by the end of the night everyone was so drunk and I’m the only one who is not, most of them are men. They all had soup and coffee before we go home, and I was the only one laughing making fun of how all of them are so drunk.
When I travel, I usually go to the airport lounge to sit and wait for my flight but mostly to pour myself a drink of Jack Daniels and coke.
No, I am not an alcoholic.