I know exactly where you are failing. Your lips are sealed on whatever this thread is about and you are, so far, unwilling to open up about it. We don’t know the sensitivity of the “issue” at hand, for all we know you could’ve been abused or even raped, or it could be something minor, but your lack of transparency isn’t helping anyone.
It is too bad this thread was not deleted, because if you were seeking help you would have already brought clarity but instead you are allowing this thread to be like a dog chasing its tail in circles. It isn’t going anywhere. This thread is only negatively affecting people’s respect for you, and perception of you. You seemed friendly before, now you seem jaded.
If I may ask, sincerely, what’s wrong?