You are blinded , you tasted once that the LORD was good , then hopped over the other side of the fence and are now proclaiming that my Jesus is weak and does not fulfil His promises...
I once sat on your side , and I thank God He showed me the correct path , and all you do is look negative at everything , and that my friend is destroying your faith...
I remember when I thought my salvation could be lost , it was horrible , and you say you have joy , where is your permanent joy , you have none and it shows , you are on the side of those who tasted the goodness of our LORD , then you jumped back , just like the people in Hebrews , it would be good for you to study that book also ...May God open your eyes...xox...