If you are questioning your salvation, then ask God, "save me, Lord!".
God is not, "wishing for anyone to perish, but that all should reach repentance"
So pray for, "God's will be done".
If you are not sure you are saved, then it might be better to assume you are not saved.
This might create more anxiety for you.
However, God might be using your anxiety to motivate you to seek him.
"Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge".
Ask, seek and knock
"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened."
You need to ask for your salvation, and seek for your salvation, but only He can open the door to your salvation.
It is a trip! A humbling trip! And I think for most they cannot humble themselves, they need God to do the humbling for them.
So ask God, "humble me!"
And hang on and remember...
Romans 8:18 "The pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming."