Thinking about killing myself
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We humans have a hard time focusing all our attention one way in our connections. We want to share and we want others to listen and care sincerely for us too. So ask these ppl about their days, take an interest in them. Folks appreciate knowing that they matter to others. Maybe we should both pray, every morning, that God brings you love and helps teach you how to extend love in a safe and healthy way that blesses others and you too.
Idk I feel sour inside like no appetite anymore. I think I need to take sleeping medicine again and just sleep. I don't know. I'm sorry. I'm confused and frrustrating to talk to I'm sure. I haven't had any drugs or medicine or cut or anything in a few days and feel upset inside. My body needs a rest from something idk what. I'm sorry I should stop. I'm so sorry. You're so nice but I just talk about me. I need to go for tonight. Goodnight.
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You obviously have no idea how fast was fast to me. I once passed a California Highway Patrol car. in my home built muscle car, that was going 105 mph on the L.A. Harbor freeway through South Central L.A. when I passed it. I spent 3 days in jail awaiting my arraignment and bail hearing. I WAS SOBER! I once fried the speedometer of my 4 cylinder Yamaha super bike in the California desert headed for Vegas, SOBER. I took it of and threw it away then rode to Texoma, over 1000 miles without a speedometer and continued to ride it that way SOBER for over a year. I've gone 0-110 mph under 13 seconds, on my bike, for fun.
I've got a titanium knee implant, I've broken my left leg twice, 2 ribs, my clavicle (collar bone,) in 2 places, my jaw, my cheekbone, nose and skull. Self destructive, fearless, reckless behavior. That was me. Oh I forgot to mention I used to gamble a couple hundred dollars a week in Vegas, sober and loaded.
In short, I was nuts. I've found a better way and that my life was worth more than my desire to escape from it.
Now I'm a sane, happy, family man with grandchildren and a love interest I realize it's not quite the same, but it's selfish, foolish, dangerous and self destructive just the same. My escape was adrenaline and drugs, including alcohol. If my maniacal, clinically depressive, escapist behavior could be curbed yours can be too. I'm done now, it's your move. Nothing is going to get better if you don't co-operate. You can cry in your soup the rest of your life, get locked up for being a danger to yourself, die, or get off of your butt and get help. It's your decision. We can only carry the message, take it or leave it. It's your choice! May God help you. Amen!
I've got a titanium knee implant, I've broken my left leg twice, 2 ribs, my clavicle (collar bone,) in 2 places, my jaw, my cheekbone, nose and skull. Self destructive, fearless, reckless behavior. That was me. Oh I forgot to mention I used to gamble a couple hundred dollars a week in Vegas, sober and loaded.
In short, I was nuts. I've found a better way and that my life was worth more than my desire to escape from it.
Now I'm a sane, happy, family man with grandchildren and a love interest I realize it's not quite the same, but it's selfish, foolish, dangerous and self destructive just the same. My escape was adrenaline and drugs, including alcohol. If my maniacal, clinically depressive, escapist behavior could be curbed yours can be too. I'm done now, it's your move. Nothing is going to get better if you don't co-operate. You can cry in your soup the rest of your life, get locked up for being a danger to yourself, die, or get off of your butt and get help. It's your decision. We can only carry the message, take it or leave it. It's your choice! May God help you. Amen!
You know.....EVERYBODY forsook JESUS.....including his 11 BEST FRIENDS..........and EVEN his HEAVENLY FATHER turned his back on him.....who cares what ANYONE thinks....and even if the whole world turns it back on us JESUS still loves us and will not forsake us...put your pants on and step up to the plate......
I have had three good friends whack themselves over pure ignorance....a permanent solution to a temporary problem.........!
I have had three good friends whack themselves over pure ignorance....a permanent solution to a temporary problem.........!
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Hi Ummza.
I'd like to share where I'm at right now. Some similarities, and hopefully I may have something that is helpful.
The Lord has had me going thru 'discipline' as talked about in Hebrews.
Well during this time I am very isolated. I spend time with God when He leads me to. I do get to spend some time with my currently rebellious husband who wont follow the Lord. Lets just say without any details things have been a constant spiritual battle in three areas.
I myself went last year to a counselor so I could talk about ME. Because that is mainly the only one who would listen. It did help because I was able to 'get out' some junk from my past that had a healing affect, and those old doubts about myself are no longer there. God does not create 'junk.' That's impossible.
As for reading the bible, read it out loud. It makes a huge difference. I also wrote down scriptures to read to combat some of these battles. Since our battle is not against flesh and blood as said in Ephesians 6, it acts as the sword of the spirit to combat the devils lies and other garabage.
It's funny how spending time with God and His Word really has combated the lonliness.
Please try reading His Word outloud.
Hope you will get the help you need. They are trained counselors and they do care or they wouldnt have gone into such a feild in the first place!
At some point we need to stand on our own two feet and take responsibility for what we are going to do.
Blessings.
I'd like to share where I'm at right now. Some similarities, and hopefully I may have something that is helpful.
The Lord has had me going thru 'discipline' as talked about in Hebrews.
Well during this time I am very isolated. I spend time with God when He leads me to. I do get to spend some time with my currently rebellious husband who wont follow the Lord. Lets just say without any details things have been a constant spiritual battle in three areas.
I myself went last year to a counselor so I could talk about ME. Because that is mainly the only one who would listen. It did help because I was able to 'get out' some junk from my past that had a healing affect, and those old doubts about myself are no longer there. God does not create 'junk.' That's impossible.
As for reading the bible, read it out loud. It makes a huge difference. I also wrote down scriptures to read to combat some of these battles. Since our battle is not against flesh and blood as said in Ephesians 6, it acts as the sword of the spirit to combat the devils lies and other garabage.
It's funny how spending time with God and His Word really has combated the lonliness.
Please try reading His Word outloud.
Hope you will get the help you need. They are trained counselors and they do care or they wouldnt have gone into such a feild in the first place!
At some point we need to stand on our own two feet and take responsibility for what we are going to do.
Blessings.
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