It's just that back when I believed in God, I did ask for faith, and I prayed for the holy spirit. I never got an answer.
He knows when each of us is ready for love. Maybe you weren't really ready yet. I think I see rain. Ask again. Turn off your computer, go to a quiet room, and ask for what you need. A verse says to keep knocking on the door. There is a parable that may help. I'm going on memory here.
There was an unjust judge who a woman kept asking for help from. She kept coming back and knocking over and over and waking him up. Finally he realized she wasn't going to go away and leave him alone, so he gave her the help she requested so she would go away and leave him alone.
And if a human, and an unjust one at that, would help someone who kept asking, then surely God, who isn't human, and isn't unjust, will help someone who keeps asking and knocking.