I find people who are happy all thr time to be annoying. It is tiresome. The Bible says we are to love everyone, we don’t have to like everyone (thank God). Everyone who dislikes me and finds me a grouch can put me on ignore and carry on basking in the happy, happy, joy, joy of more pleasant users. As a matter of fact, I’ll take myself off the site until I can rein in my unpleasant personality from ruining everyone’s happy conversations.
Hi Galatea,
I don't know if I qualify as one of the "annoyingly happy" people (I don't think I do, but just in case, I better cover all the bases), but may I say, with your vast knowledge of books and depth of characters, I have to admit, I'm a little surprised that you don't see what's really going on behind a lot of people's put-on happiness.
Many of the greatest comedians were/are terminally depressed. They just choose to put on a mask and distract themselves and others instead.
For the past 4 months, I've been waiting to find out if I have cancer. I went through this back when I was around 30, too. Two ultrasounds and a biopsy. This time it was an ultrasound and a surgery. Have I mentioned that I HATE ultrasounds? I told God, "Other women have them to see their babies for the first time. I have to have the (edited) things to see if I have cancer."
I've pretty much been a wreck from January on. Back when I was younger, I used to scream out loud and punch things (doors and furniture.) This time around, I was just too numb to do much of anything except to to work and function out of habit. I couldn't feel anything except sadness and anxiety and pretty much turned into walking zombie. I went to work like nothing was wrong, and in fact, went right back to work the day after the surgery, because we singles know, if we don't pay the bills, who will? I was so, so tired... all the time... but there just wasn't any time to stop.
Sorry. I don't mean to whine and complain about what I went through or what I've been feeling, because I'm sure that might be even more annoying to you than being happy. No worries. I'll just flip my "happy" switch back on and keep writing ridiculously fluffy threads. It's what I do. Why make everyone else suffer just because I'm feeling like hell on the inside? But I would have guessed that you, of all people, would know that a person who seems happy... very often... is not--at all.
I'm very thankful to God that I'm in the clear, at least this time, seeing as it's an ongoing thing that I'll have to get checked regularly. But I still feel... Let's just say, the inside doesn't match what I post on the outside.
I'm not sure how many of Sweetmorningdew's posts you have read, but she has been through a lot of difficulties and heartaches in her life. In fact, I think many of them are ones that you could relate to very well. We all have different personalities and ways of coping... Personally, I have always admired her for turning her sorrows into encouragement for others, but that's just me. I wish I could be more like her, because the real me is anything but sunshine and roses.
When I'm feeling lousy, I tell God how much life sucks (in an intense dialogue that I cannot repeat on a Christian website.) I just don't post the truth of the matter publicly... at least not for the most part. I just keep it to myself. And don't worry, I'm not backsliding, I'll flip my lethally annoying happy switch back on in a minute, if you'll just bear with me.
I do hope you find what you're looking for, Galatea (please forgive me but I'm sure I'll somehow manage to mess up the spelling and/or stylization of your current username), and I will pray that you find both peace and joy.
And, this is for Sweetmorningdew... You are always an inspiration. The Bible tells us to lift up, encourage, and edify one another, and you are one of the best example I have ever seen. Please, keep on being the you that God made you to be, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. <3
God bless and be well.