I hear you Ben , and after hearing a sermon on faith without works is dead , I can understand this tonight...
You see faith without works is dead...A few days ago I was in the middle of having a heart surgery , but due to an untold problem they retracted and I will have surgery at a latter date...Now while this was all before me I was resting and trusting in God , I was reading Scripture and speaking it out loud over my life , " Your will be done Father , whatever your will "...So in these months building up to my op , I was living in my faith, my faith was alive not dead , and what happened in the middle of my surgery was shown a problem the doctors never saw , so they stopped , withdrew and have made another date so they can sort two problems in one , my living faith got me through it...
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Now tonight my faith was dead , why
, because I turned to alcohol , I drank through my nerves , I drank because of the aftermath of what I went through these past days , I put my faith in drink to calm my self , that is dead faith , and now I have repented...James is saying our faith is dead when we put our faith into dead works , now my faith is alive in Christ where it should of been tonight , not in my self looking beyond Christ , anything we put our faith in is dead unless it is in Christ Jesus , so my faith in myself tonight is dead , but thank God I am in Christ Jesus who has forgiven me , my faith in my own works tonight was dead , but now as I type , I am typing through faith in my LORD Jesus Christ , my faith is now alive Praise God \
/xox...
Gob bless you Rosemary.
What you have gone through, is our spiritual reality with the Lord.
We are weak, tossed around, looking for stability within, and need real faith and hope.
Jesus is always there, saying I can provide, yet we so often go for the worlds solutions.
Jesus is calling us, saying love does conquer all, purity is not a nice to have, it is life,
it is the outworking of truth over worldly passions and dreams.
In our church we have lots of people in their 80's, 90's. Some slowly slipping into dementia.
A few cancer cases appear and takes them in a few weeks. This puts a very different focus on
what matters, and worldly passions are way down the list, and realizing Christs love is at
the top. Another group have MS or Parkinsons disease.
This is a different world emotionally and spiritually to some here and their discussions about
salvation, and abiding in sin, and being ok with it.
People lie very easily about me being a sinless perfectionist. I am someone just seeking the
truth and asking why does Paul call us Holy and call us to purity.
Because that is what we are, with weaknesses and failings which we need to work on.
I grew up in a family that did not know how to love, to express, to forgive, to give space to
another and then know how to take pain, bring it to the Lord and return in love. But now
I do. It is like night and day, life and loneliness, a cup unknown to a cup full.
I have wept, felt alone, rejected, cast out and come back. I have had my times of anger,
and my times of great joy. So in all this I know the fruit of the sermon on the mount, and
I know it is life, built on a solid rock. So be encouraged, the Lord is with His people and will
bring them to Himself. Amen.