nah....you can do gymnastics all day long, it won't make your practices anything like the biblical gifts.
they ended, and no one alive today experiences what the disciples experienced.
how dreadful to drag down their experience (power from on high) to match the pitiful displays of today
Speaking of experience, do you have any? This may be why you don't believe because you haven't experienced any of it firsthand. Understandable to a degree, but you might want to get out of that grave known as doubt that you have thrown yourself into if you ever wish to be used in the gifts of the Spirit.
Think for a moment. If the gifts are, in fact, still in operation today are you not doing a disservice to the Body of Christ? Is not your service less than it could be, both practically and in quantity? If they are in operation today, do you not think it wise to seek the better gifts as the apostle Paul encouraged?
You're handicapping yourself with your doctrine of Cessation. Maybe you ought to reconsider your position by seeking the Lord?