Is this my calling?

[Tommy379]

I've went thru a lot as I'm sure we all have. I feel God is leading me to post some of my experiences and I would like honest feedback please. For example: I was put on adderall and it destroyed parts of my life! I thought everything was great! ( disclaimer: I think the drug is fine when used properly and if you take it and it works then great! I'm not a doctor and I'm only expressing what happened to me ) The first month: I felt great and life was great! Newfound energy, sexdrive, I was cool to my kids it was just great! Even if the occasional escort was needed it was awesome bc the sex was amazing. I'm 46 and I felt like a 18 year old! I could do anything! Even felt like God blessed me with it! By the 3rd month friends / family would hint around something's off. I would think they don't understand bc I'm add and this stuff makes me normal and they just never seen me normal. But it bother me bc maybe they was right? After all I've never been able to stay up and get things done like this before! Nah they just don't understand! By this time I'd almost drowned in the ocean bc my mind told me I could swim. ( I'm not a swimmer) I was wearing a go pro at the time and remember looking at in the ambulance thinking man I'm going to be rich! A real life drowning video!!! I couldn't see it as something I was doing wrong? the adderall told me everything's ok! After leaveing the Er I was proud and always thinking what others was thinking about me! About 2 more months went by and my nephew told me that's just like meth!!! Wow my eyes was beginnning to open!!! I asked my doctor and he said yes it's from the meth family. Shocked I commenced to stop taking them! Fast forward a year and I'm about back to me. You see it was my sister that told me I'm add and everyone knows it but me and hands me a adderall. I fell hook line and sinker! Went to my doc and bam I'm add and taking adderall as prescribed every day! I thought I was getting work done and I really tried but I'm the end I lost most everything just like someone using meth! But I'm justified right? So I thought until I started ignoring my kids, staying out late and sometimes coming home a day or 2 late. Well I have a 19 yr I thought surely he will be ok with them! Today I know they love me and I love them but I can never get back the time I lost with them. They was and still are my world but the adderall made me feel so good I would just think they will be ok! After all I'm trying to get a escort to marry me, move in with her kids so we could live happily ever after! I didn't see she wanted money I just seen a girl who had a hard time and needed me to save her even if I was paying for it was her job and I was going to get her out of it! If interested pls give feedback and I will share more thanks for reading

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Are you really paying for strange?

 

[prodigal]

hosea 1

2 Here is the first message:
The Lord said to Hosea, “Go and marry a girl who is a prostitute, so that some of her children will be born to you from other men. This will illustrate the way my people have been untrue to me, committing open adultery against me by worshiping other gods.”
3 So Hosea married Gomer, daughter of Diblaim, and she conceived and bore him a son.

 

[kaylagrl]

Please don't reply on my posts!

This is an open forum and anyone can reply to your posts if they wish.

 

[kaylagrl]

I've went thru a lot as I'm sure we all have. I feel God is leading me to post some of my experiences and I would like honest feedback please. For example: I was put on adderall and it destroyed parts of my life! I thought everything was great! ( disclaimer: I think the drug is fine when used properly and if you take it and it works then great! I'm not a doctor and I'm only expressing what happened to me ) The first month: I felt great and life was great! Newfound energy, sexdrive, I was cool to my kids it was just great! Even if the occasional escort was needed it was awesome bc the sex was amazing. I'm 46 and I felt like a 18 year old! I could do anything! Even felt like God blessed me with it! By the 3rd month friends / family would hint around something's off. I would think they don't understand bc I'm add and this stuff makes me normal and they just never seen me normal. But it bother me bc maybe they was right? After all I've never been able to stay up and get things done like this before! Nah they just don't understand! By this time I'd almost drowned in the ocean bc my mind told me I could swim. ( I'm not a swimmer) I was wearing a go pro at the time and remember looking at in the ambulance thinking man I'm going to be rich! A real life drowning video!!! I couldn't see it as something I was doing wrong? the adderall told me everything's ok! After leaveing the Er I was proud and always thinking what others was thinking about me! About 2 more months went by and my nephew told me that's just like meth!!! Wow my eyes was beginnning to open!!! I asked my doctor and he said yes it's from the meth family. Shocked I commenced to stop taking them! Fast forward a year and I'm about back to me. You see it was my sister that told me I'm add and everyone knows it but me and hands me a adderall. I fell hook line and sinker! Went to my doc and bam I'm add and taking adderall as prescribed every day! I thought I was getting work done and I really tried but I'm the end I lost most everything just like someone using meth! But I'm justified right? So I thought until I started ignoring my kids, staying out late and sometimes coming home a day or 2 late. Well I have a 19 yr I thought surely he will be ok with them! Today I know they love me and I love them but I can never get back the time I lost with them. They was and still are my world but the adderall made me feel so good I would just think they will be ok! After all I'm trying to get a escort to marry me, move in with her kids so we could live happily ever after! I didn't see she wanted money I just seen a girl who had a hard time and needed me to save her even if I was paying for it was her job and I was going to get her out of it! If interested pls give feedback and I will share more thanks for reading

Quote " I would like honest feedback please."

You asked for honest feedback!


Quote " Even if the occasional escort was needed it was awesome bc the sex was amazing."

Your profile says you're a Christian,so whats wrong with this picture? An escort was needed... Does that seem right to you according to the Bible?


Quote "After all I'm trying to get a escort to marry me"...

Does this sound right to you? Do you think God would approve of this?


Quote "If interested pls give feedback "...

So you have asked for feedback,twice,and then you tell people off who give you feedback. Does that seem right to you?

 

[blue_ladybug]

Because you especially exposed lady blue? And what did you expose about me? Nothing at all, since I have alot of people tell me I write judgemental posts.. lol.. But if the shoe fits, YOU gotta wear it.

 

[HisHolly]

Thinking what's said is judgement bc it wasn't what you wanted to hear doesn't make it any less true... People who don't understand love think a lot of Christians are judgemental.. some are but not all... Love is truth. I'd be against you if I said marry her as she is.. I was a stripper for the majority of my adult life, I did it all.. I'm not judging, I'm telling you that unless Jesus cleanses her with His saving blood, she will not be a faithful wife.. she has yielded herself to those spirits behind the sex industry for too long.. she may deny for a while, but you can't fill the void. She'll go back.. if you're ok with that or don't believe me, it's unfortunate..

 

[Tommy379]

Because you especially exposed lady blue? And what did you expose about me? Nothing at all, since I have alot of people tell me I write judgemental posts.. lol.. But if the shoe fits, YOU gotta wear it.

I know, your kinda famous for it.

 

[blue_ladybug]

I know, your kinda famous for it.

So are alot of other people here.. I could name names but I have more class than that.

 

[kaylagrl]

So are alot of other people here.. I could name names but I have more class than that.

Ya they kinda lump you and I together. Im starting to feel like Arnold Schwarzenegger and whats his face, DeVito in that twins movie. Hopefully neither of us are that ugly tho.

 

[kaylagrl]

Thinking what's said is judgement bc it wasn't what you wanted to hear doesn't make it any less true... People who don't understand love think a lot of Christians are judgemental.. some are but not all... Love is truth. I'd be against you if I said marry her as she is.. I was a stripper for the majority of my adult life, I did it all.. I'm not judging, I'm telling you that unless Jesus cleanses her with His saving blood, she will not be a faithful wife.. she has yielded herself to those spirits behind the sex industry for too long.. she may deny for a while, but you can't fill the void. She'll go back.. if you're ok with that or don't believe me, it's unfortunate..

God can definitely forgive anyones past and give them a new future. We're all level at the foot of the cross. But the OP made it clear he was having sex with this escort outside of marriage. Hopefully it wasn't inside of marriage! He hasn't been clear but Im assuming he's claiming he was a Christian when he was having sex with her. Now he wants to marry her. He needs to get his business right with God before he makes any decisions about the future. Im assuming she's not a Christian so he's adding insult to injury. Got to get things right first,you are totally right.

 

[Ahoir]

I kinda feel like the woman being stoned and everyone threw theirs but it's ok. At least i was honest and if your what is called a Christian. It's just not for me...

 

[Tommy379]

I can say one thing good about a prostitute, atleast she has a job.

 

[SunsSunny]

Hello and welcome! The word Christian is thrown around too easily today. It's nothing like being a part of The Way in the bible where you risked your life and shared all you possessed. I read all of your message and felt as if your mind was racing while you wrote it! It is good the have enthusiasm and excitement and explicit honesty.

as Christians, we have a standard of morality and holiness which allows us to be close with our Holy God. We all fall short of it and by his grace and his blood he cleanses us of unrighteousness , yet we must strive to be our true selves, a new creature in Christ freed from past sins, making not even mention of what is considered debauchery . We of course also fall very short on that as well. Some of us even cheer more for a dude putting a ball in a circle than for the King of glory who laid down his crown so that we could be His crown, his bride....

i apologize for judgment , we are all human after all and it's hard to discern the heart of your message when there are clear trigger words and profane language . But what I see is a person who has in excitement somehow decided to confide his life story to a Christian community . So welcome, and please don't be offput if we who come to fellowship in holiness and to escape the chatter of the world which drains us become offended by what you wrote and in our haste in turn offended you.

seems like you are a very trusting and hopeful and honest person and these are gifts from God
i pray you would find his favor and righteous guidance so that your beautiful gifts could be displayed to the glory of Christ for all to see.
its a blessing to have children and you are a big man to admit you have lost time with them which you can never get back. But they are always the little boys or girls who you held in your arms for the first time and gave you an instant PhD in love. Use what you have left of that PhD and love them and love them and love them until they can no longer ignore the fact that you are loving them

thats pretty much how jesus won me and the rest of us.
I think you know yourself the adverse effects of aderall and pray God give you the strength to set that and all mind altering drugs aside .
I used to live in Las Vegas and know very well the fleshly gratification of prostitutes. But that hope to start a family inside of you, that is the real love which is from God. We go for fleshly pleasure yet our hearts cry to us that we want something deep, lasting eternal !

So so my prayer is you would find that if The Lord is willing, that you would set aside the lusts of the flesh to appease the greater desire in you for companionship and a shared life together. Surely God forgives and surely He provides. If you can seek spiritually you will be satisfied spiritually and live a life of Life. If you see physically , your spirit will be suffocated and you will find yourself on the road which leads to death and despair.

To to know The Lord is joy !!! I pray this joy win your heart and that the yolk of your flesh would be put to death that the Spirit of God would raise you to life by his might and spirit!

Jesus is real! And heaven is better than anything you can imagine!!! When I first encountered God, I realized I could truly have anything I wanted ( in Him) and immediately all my desires were sexual and my flesh was inflamed ... But now I understand what it is to desire the spirit... It is magnificent that one day this flesh will be put aside, and the pure and holy pleasures of God will be revealed to us when we are liberated from this body of death... So now my desire is just a taste of love, as close as I can come to him and his pure holy love. My flesh burns at times, but I will speak the truth, and when I find I begin to laugh and bubble with joy, I know my spirit has put to death the desires of the flesh, and I am desiring the truly gifts of God which await us in eternity!

I hope I gave you a Christian perspective on things..... There's pretty much a ton more ! But basically we have a joy set before us that is unshakable , it is the assurance that our eyes will not close as upon darkness when we sleep on the day of our death, but will open to a light brighter than a million suns, where true joy, love, and pleasure begin. For this we strive , and smile amidst persecution famine and death . For we don't belong to this world, and it's passions are to us as an old escort beyond her years beckoning to us when the love of our life awaits us at home, the one we thought was dead but is alive. Well I'd prob run home at that point

 

[Demi777]

I kinda feel like the woman being stoned and everyone threw theirs but it's ok. At least i was honest and if your what is called a Christian. It's just not for me...

John 8: 7-11
7 So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.
8 And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground.
9 And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
10 When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
11 She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.

The woman wasnt stoned. They dropped their stones and left.

 

[Ahoir]

Demi,
Your stones was not physical...

 

[Ahoir]

Thank you for your kind words I have communication issues and I was putting myself out. I'm not a troll and I'm not sure what a troll is. Lol

 

[Demi777]

Demi,
Your stones was not physical...

I wasnt trying to cast stones..I wanted to help u to see we werent judging until u told us to check out cults and meditate. I admit then I got a bit upset but I think u were too.

Thank you for your kind words I have communication issues and I was putting myself out. I'm not a troll and I'm not sure what a troll is. Lol

Troll is the internet term for trouble maker (it confused me too for a while). No one is perfect. All good Huuugs