I've went thru a lot as I'm sure we all have. I feel God is leading me to post some of my experiences and I would like honest feedback please. For example: I was put on adderall and it destroyed parts of my life! I thought everything was great! ( disclaimer: I think the drug is fine when used properly and if you take it and it works then great! I'm not a doctor and I'm only expressing what happened to me ) The first month: I felt great and life was great! Newfound energy, sexdrive, I was cool to my kids it was just great! Even if the occasional escort was needed it was awesome bc the sex was amazing. I'm 46 and I felt like a 18 year old! I could do anything! Even felt like God blessed me with it! By the 3rd month friends / family would hint around something's off. I would think they don't understand bc I'm add and this stuff makes me normal and they just never seen me normal. But it bother me bc maybe they was right? After all I've never been able to stay up and get things done like this before! Nah they just don't understand! By this time I'd almost drowned in the ocean bc my mind told me I could swim. ( I'm not a swimmer) I was wearing a go pro at the time and remember looking at in the ambulance thinking man I'm going to be rich! A real life drowning video!!! I couldn't see it as something I was doing wrong? the adderall told me everything's ok! After leaveing the Er I was proud and always thinking what others was thinking about me! About 2 more months went by and my nephew told me that's just like meth!!! Wow my eyes was beginnning to open!!! I asked my doctor and he said yes it's from the meth family. Shocked I commenced to stop taking them! Fast forward a year and I'm about back to me. You see it was my sister that told me I'm add and everyone knows it but me and hands me a adderall. I fell hook line and sinker! Went to my doc and bam I'm add and taking adderall as prescribed every day! I thought I was getting work done and I really tried but I'm the end I lost most everything just like someone using meth! But I'm justified right? So I thought until I started ignoring my kids, staying out late and sometimes coming home a day or 2 late. Well I have a 19 yr I thought surely he will be ok with them! Today I know they love me and I love them but I can never get back the time I lost with them. They was and still are my world but the adderall made me feel so good I would just think they will be ok! After all I'm trying to get a escort to marry me, move in with her kids so we could live happily ever after! I didn't see she wanted money I just seen a girl who had a hard time and needed me to save her even if I was paying for it was her job and I was going to get her out of it! If interested pls give feedback and I will share more
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