I was diagnosed with heart disease and told I needed bypass surgery 4.5 years ago. I started going to a charismatic/Kenneth E Hagin-like church a few months after my diagnosis. They believe strongly in laying hands on people and healing.
I went up for healing...believed that I received it...testified to being healed for years...got into leadership...and even left my job to be on staff. A few months ago I started having chest pains, after a series of doctor visits and another angiogram my heart has gotten worse.
I'm fighting to believe all that I've learned...but I'm definitely doubting divine healing...what I REALLY don't like...is it's causing me to doubt almost everything I hear or read. I find myself rolling my eyes at testimonies or people encouraging others with scripture or sayings. Any time I hear a charismatic preacher on tv or YouTube I question what they say. I feel like I'm losing my faith in God. He has to be real.
I really need someone who knows their charismatic apologetics. Please don't waste my time or yours if all you have to chime in with is a bible verse with a short saying attached to it like "John 10:10 the enemy is just trying to kill you"
I need something way solid and explained in detail. Please. Thank you so much!
Well there's nothing more solid than the truth, but I'm afraid it's not going to be what you want to hear. The truth is that miracles, such as supernatural healing, were for a purpose, and that purpose has ceased. (Stay with me) They were to identify the prophets, the Christ, and the apostles. Even Paul left Timothy sick when he could have healed him, because the miracles had a purpose, and convenience was not one of them. Paul himself asked God for healing, and God's answer was, "My grace is sufficient for you." He would not heal him. Matter of fact, since he was the chief of sinners, God told him how much he would have to suffer for His name. But it was brilliant of God to use Paul, to show us that if the chief of sinners can make it to heaven, there is certainly hope for all of us.
There are reasons for ailments, whether big ones or little ones...
One reason is sin, God punishes sin with disease. And this punishment can be inflicted on the innocent. For example, a homosexual man gets the AIDS disease, is bitten by a mosquito, and that mosquito bites an innocent baby, and now that baby has AIDS. Or a surgeon goes to work high on drugs, or lack of sleep, or inexperienced, and makes a mistake, and now the patient has to live with the results of that mistake. Maybe the helping nurse didn't follow procedure by not washing hands or wearing gloves. Or someone with evil intentions tampers with your food or medicine- it has happened. Sin is a cause, whether for the perpetrator or the victim.
Another reason is God used the situation to boost faith or growth in you or someone who witnessed you. There was a song years ago called "Sometimes Miracles Hide" that describes this well. The apostles asked Jesus if it was the sin of the blind man, or the sin of his parents that caused him to be blind. And Jesus said in that specific situation it was so that people would see Jesus heal him.
Or it could be natural cause and effect- you fell off a ladder and broke a bone, or it rained on a dead diseased animal, which got into the ground water, onto our food source. Many people use animal or even human poop as fertilizer- which causes diseased vegetation.
Ok, so if you break a bone, God is not going to instantly and miraculously heal you, like Christ healed the man's ear that Peter cut off during His arrest. But there is healing. You just have to heal by natural means instead of supernatural means. Having said that though, there still remains power through prayer. God still plays a role in healing, but without the extreme miraculous signs that have served their purpose. Why didn't Jesus stay and be the most famous Doctor ever? Why didn't He stay and multiply bread and fish- there would be no hungry or poor. It is because He's not here to support physical life that will one day be destroyed, He wants us to react, to respond, to grow spiritually. Without work no muscle is gained.We cannot expect God to heal obesity while we do nothing on our part
So what can we do to promote healing? Sin not. Go for as long of a stretch without sinning as you can. God is not a genie- you serve Him, not the other way around. Win His favor. Even in the New Testament God tells children IF they obey their Christian parents (do what's right) that they WILL live a LONG life on the earth, a life that they will ENJOY. You cannot be LIVNG in sin (not just a mistake here and there, but a daily habit) such as living as a drunkard, a smoker, in adultry or such, and expect God to answer your prayer favorably. The bible says God does not even hear the prayer of a sinner. You need to have ongoing fellowship with Him. Maybe your prayer life s poor, and God is giving you a reason to talk to Him.
Also, it is proven that positive attitudes heal faster and better than negative attitudes. Stress destroys the body. God said be anxious about absolutely nothing.
How's your Nutrition? God gave us healing foods- dark leafy greens, nuts, beans, water, fish. Are you eating God's food or man-made chemicals? A mother cut out red food dye from her son's diet, and he was instantly cured of ADHD. A lot of ailments are caused by what we eat, and household cleaners even cause cancer. Sugar, especially soda pop- which goes straight to our bloodstream, does the opposite of healing, it destroys. This is why diabetics lose a toe, a foot, a leg, or their life. God says eat in order to live, don't live in order to eat.
Fast. (Only water). It takes a lot of energy for your body to digest food, and when there's no food to digest your body uses that energy for healing.
A miraculous way is not the only way.
Song: I know the Lord will find a way for me. If I walk in heavens light, shun the wrong and do the right, I know the Lord will find a way for me.
Listening to false prophets and false doctrines, such as the charismatic, is not the way. They claim to heal internal things that cannot be seen or proven. But not like a severe back hunch, or many other things Christ healed.
Life is a test, to see where we will spend eternity. Don't be surprised that you have a test, or be surprised when it leaves because you passed with flying colors. Have faith that God is in control. What reason is there to hope if there's nothing to hope for?