So. I may kind of sort of need prayer at the moment because I am really, really spent and run down and generally worn out, all over.
Well, I've kind of been pushing myself at work to do everything for everyone and take up jobs that were not allocated to me in order to help others, but over a long period of time, I've finally come to my final straw and have burnt myself out. I've spent the past couple of mornings crying in my car before work, because the idea of getting through another day hurts my brain meats and I'm still struggling with telling people I can't do these extra jobs anymore.
And it's funny because for a long season, the Lord wanted me to learn what it means to solely rely on Him. It took awhile to break my pride, but I learnt to open up and cling to Him and trust. I happily came to a place where I was like, "God, it's just me an You, let's conquer the world!" Then God added, "Okay Arlene. Lesson 2: Loving others," and I responded with, "Okay, awesome, I'm up for it!" But it's not always easy and I realised I had to cling ever more so on to God to go through this intense learning season.
And now I'm learning what it means to rely on others and ask for help, and I can tell you right now, I would rather some other very uncomfortable situation than to ask for help. But I guess, relationships aren't just me actively loving others, but asking to lean on someone as well. So, I'm asking for prayers. I'm asking for help from my family, here, because I'm tired and worn out and have to learn to say, I don't always have it together. Prayers would be appreciated, greatly.
And there goes my pride....
I wish Pipp was here to bake me a cake. How does one woman master such awe inspiring cake baking skills?