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homwardbound

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It can be frustrating, but before becoming too frustrated with them you have to stop and ask yourself if you've ever spent any time like that? Trapped in your situation. Accepting where you're at and not expecting any change or relief. Feeling paralyzed. Not even trying. How long did you go like that? Hours? Days? Weeks? Years?
Usually that's a sign of a person that is hurt and broken and can't see hope. While there are limit to how long you give these people chances, recognizing that you've been there as well, and that this person just needs a bigger push to give them hope, might be a more useful approach.
You know, I personally to me found the most freeing thing from another is when they say to you, "when you are ready"
 

homwardbound

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I know what you mean. I feel like I have to vomit and my fingers tremble for just a moment when I get an email notification from X. I just never know what's going to be in it or how he's going to try to cause trouble. For a moment, I become that shell of a person that he made me to be. I am different now, stronger; but I wonder if that wounded part of me will ever totally heal.
It will it happens in layers like peeling an onion, when you get to the center, it is very sweet, yet took a lot of tears to see it and taste it
God has started God's work in all who have chosen and will choose to beleive God, tha tis when we the onion starts to be peeled back
 

homwardbound

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SOUNDS LIKE THERE'S SOMEONE I NEED TO PUNCH.

Just kidding.

Sort of.




I know it's easier said than done to not listen to him, but just remember there's only one of him telling you that and all of us (and Christ) telling you that you are more, and beautiful, and worth it, and redeemed.
Punch him with the praise and worship band as in the day of King Jehoshaphat, went up against three armies by the praise and worship band going up front, praising they won this war, and those three armies in confusion set each other ablaze and destroyed each other
Kindness, love and Mercy killed evil and kills evil, every time, you think?
 

homwardbound

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Yeesh, apparently I get reactive and passionate when trying to protect the broken. I posted a response in a thread where I probably should have taken a couple more breaths before posting.

Anyway.

I told my supervisor this morning about the move, and my coworkers right before we left. They all are sad, excited, and understand. I know I (and probably one or two others) will cry on my last day. I plan on leaving a note for them and sending cards on holidays as well.

I got an email saying that a second interview is wanted from one of the places I interviewed with on Tuesday, the one I'd prefer to be hired for. It will be via a web cam since I cannot make it in person, but the HR rep said that it's a three hour process. Three hours?? What in the world?! She said something about "back-to-back interviews" so I wonder if I'm interviewing with different managers or something. I thought to myself, "If I'm interviewing for 3 straight hours, I better get the job!" :rolleyes:
Guaranteed Sister, god has a plan and for us to trust in spite of when it looks good or bad, for why God promised
[h=3]Romans 8:28[/h]Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

[SUP]28 [/SUP]And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
 

homwardbound

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I don't disagree about that- you're right, I've been there myself. I've felt trapped, I've felt like I couldn't change anything, I've felt like even trying to would be pointless.
But I recognized that something needed to change.
That's what frustrates me, is when a person is Content to carry on the way they are, and they so don't HAVE to. When they no longer even have the thought that life Should be better.
And I know people like that are broken...they've gone numb. I know Why it happens. I just hate seeing it. Because bad as things get sometimes, crappy as parts of my life have been, I'm a fighter. I may have to shut down for a while to cope, but even so there's an internal struggle, a flickering flame, just waiting for its chance to get that little bit of oxygen it needs to turn into a blaze. If that fire ever goes out...game over. So when I see other people whose fires have been extinguished...it's just too much, you know? It doesn't have to BE that way.
I might've stopped making sense.
And the Holy Ghost comes with fire, why? you make perfect sense to me sis
 

homwardbound

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So...the little cow who's trying to drink my coffee in my avatar...he's had an eventful day. First the coffee, then dancing lessons with a one year old, then flying lessons from a three year old. And then the cow told cow stories and sang in cow language to two very happy kids.

And then the cow got thrown out the window. Bye bye.

My neighbor brought him back.

And THEN...

I got into minor trouble by the apartment manager. She almost never goes to anyone's apartment to talk to them; she usually tapes a note to the door asking you to go see her. Apparently, this was something of an emergency.

I had a giant blue stuffed bunny with super sad eyes perched precariously on the window ledge, with a sign pinned to his tummy that said "GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD. I'M GONNA JUMP."

So the manager showed up, and I thought I was going to be evicted or something over my terrible memory for paying bills on time (which makes no sense at all because I currently don't have to pay rent). But then she started walking into the living room without saying so much as Hi, and stopped by the window and folded her hands together and sighed before finally saying, "I never thought I'd see the day when I would have to add 'keep your suicidal bunnies out of the window' to the rules and regulations here. This isn't something they prepare you for in training."

I said, "So...yeah...I'll just take that down then, shall I?"

Apparently someone driving by saw it (which was the point...) and did NOT see any humor in it.

On the bright side, I should have my screen put back in tomorrow.
You are awesome and maybe the most peculiar one I have met, awesome. and yes many do tkae things as bad and complain, not east to be at peace with everyone, and actually can't, not even Christ was, and not from his side as he said Father forgive them, they know not what they do?
wondering can we do the same from our new hearts given to us by God?
is that the peace and quietness that passes all understanding having the righteousness of God that we participate in?
 

homwardbound

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It's quite nice not having anyone telling me when I have to go to bed, but it would be kind of nice to have someone tell me to go to bed. I are loopy and nonsensing. It hurts my brain.
We have this tendency in each of us to cry when there is too much rain and then cry again when not enough, the flesh nature can't be satisfied Sister ever. And is what you are discovering through all the mess you are in
one wants to be married, gets married and then wants not to be, and then wants to be, A cycle that never seems to end
The religious leaders cried to Christ, what you do not fast, you are a glutton and Christ answered, about this we the flesh nature is never satisfied. Always straining out what is wrong, in any and all situations.
 

homwardbound

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Ahhh, 5 am brings about such bizarre thoughts.

I mentioned to a friend last month a bit of a scenario...something like "I bet if so & so said or did this,no one would take issue with it,or if they said this or that people would turn a blind eye,but yet when I do that,it's suddenly the end of the world & I'm a horrible person."

This friend reassured me that simply wasn't the case. That it would be just as shocking,wrong or unacceptable no matter who was doing/saying these things.

I guess I still feel that there are lots of double standards. Many times just as many among Christians,depending on who you talk to or what circle of friends you have.

I know it's my pride. There's nothing scriptural for why it bothers me...other than "sin" is "sin" type of thing,no matter who does it. I catch myself asking God "why?" quite a bit. I compare too much. I really hate this aspect of myself & wish I could just grow up. Not give a hoot what anyone else is or isn't doing in their private life.

It's all pride. I can be very immature at times. It may not always show on the outside,but inside my mind once & a while it's like a terrible daycare center gone wrong.

These are the moments when I feel like I should extract myself from any type of social media,because I'm not strong enough to stay away,and the more I see how certain people behave,the more I want to act like a jerk & lash out. Even if in reality what I'd say to them was the truth or fact,I know my heart wouldn't be to help or encourage it would be to be a (insert favorite curse word here)!
To tell truth is freeing beyond what we are learned from childhood on, learning to not tell truth in fear of what others might say about us, keeps us in fear, when God says by him cast that out as you just did, awesome Brother awesome
 

homwardbound

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hum, not to sure I'd do a good job either, cant we just say it's a club without any president or managers?
For God called us to freedom, not bondage love it Sister and then we can freely speak and share as it is already here on CC you think? We are all equal, and all get to share freely without condemnation and be healed as God came to do this for us all I think anyway?
 

homwardbound

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Some of you know that in the fall I'm having weight loss surgery, if the insurance doesn't decide it's a no go, I should be, anyhow now any one who is reading this knows. Well part of the pre surgery stuff is to get a psychological evaluation. I had one the other day, nice man, I was honest with him. He had questions that I'm sure he asks most people who are there for the evaluation. A lot of good thought provoking questions.

Anyhow he asked me something and I had to think for a minute and said, well with age comes peace. He said, wow, I really like that. So I was kind of happy I made him think about something. :)
And I say the same Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is truth to the "T" thank you will use that. For those not at peace as I travel her ein this world and see those not at peace if God willing at the time
 

homwardbound

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@ homewardbound........Have you ever considered writing a book? I think you'd be on the Best Seller list,my friend. :)
Thank you God willing as I only want to be carried in God's arms, reminds of the story called Footprints
 

homwardbound

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Due to the inability to reply to a pm I received early this morning (obviously he didn't want me to be able to reply, and that's fine but I have some things to say...imagine that), please excuse me a moment while I make a brief foray back into lunacy...

I've heard, too many times in my life, that thing about how people come into our lives for a season, and then we move on, or they do, but for however long we were in each other's lives, there was a reason for it. I've been told that mainly as an attempt to console me when I've had my heart broken...and I've always rolled my eyes at it. Because hello, sappiness alert! But sometimes, it's true. Sometimes God places people in our lives who serve a purpose, although as humans, we may get confused as to what that purpose is supposed to be.

That's what happened to us. We got off track somewhere. We royally screwed things up. We behaved in a selfish, thoughtless way.

And yet God's purpose was still fulfilled. You are in a better place. I am in a better place. In a way, we used each other as stepping stones to climb out of the darkness we were both in at the beginning. I needed to draw on your strength to get out of my abusive marriage- I used you as a way to stifle the fear and the pain. I didn't realize it at the time, but that's exactly what happened. I think- I hope- I was some help to you, as well.

I loved you in the wrong ways and for the wrong reasons, but I did love you to the best of my broken abilities.

Now...I see more clearly. God has lead me- kicking and screaming- to where I am now, beyond the need for the safe haven you provided me, beyond the confused sort of love I felt for you, beyond the pain of a ruined and lost friendship. God is healing me, and He is able to do so because you pushed me out of the nest, so to speak. I can say now, sincerely, that I love you only as a brother in Christ. That's as it should be, and I am at peace with that.

I don't know if you'll see this. I hope you do so you understand that I am neither hurt nor angry. I was- of course I was. I lost my best friend. But even that...I have accepted and moved past.

You were a light in my life when things were pretty bleak- I hope you remember that, that you helped more than hurt, and that the hurt is healed and forgotten.

Now we can both move on, with no regrets and no guilt and nothing to hold us back from bright futures. I honestly wish you the best, and pray that God continues the work in your life you say He's begun.

I have no elegant words to end this with, so...*koala hug*...and...bye, friend :)
thank you Father for revealing truth and being set free in it having no regrets and to learn from any and all tragedies here in this life
for you came to set us free and to love all regardless of what anyone has done or not done, including me
Freedom in the midst of tragedy is revealed
Than you Lord
 
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Markum1972

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I don't think anyone has a problem with someone who is looking for a mate or would like to get married. The issue is that sooo many people seem to turn marriage into some kind of idol, like without a spouse, they are nothing and they're doomed to be alone forever. The problem is the attitude behind Why a person is seeking a mate.
Oh no... both situations exist and are separate problems.

Forbidding to marriage at a full degree or even in the form of discouragement of it, including seeking it, is result of seducing spirits and the teaching of demons. I'm not talking about the world, but the body of Christ as many have abandoned the things that God has said about the matter. Most (almost all) do so in ignorance, as the deception of seducing spirits would have it. (1 Timothy 4:1-4, Hosea 4:6)

What should we do then? Know the truth, believe, and receive the things that God created with thanksgiving.

Idolatry certainly exists as well. When one loves and serves something/someone and enters into disobedience towards God (like Adam loved and served Eve before God and disobeyed him), they have idolized that thing/person. Love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, mind, and soul first and foremost.

Was it wrong for Adam to love or serve Eve? Certainly not. His transgression was in putting her above God, which was made manifest when he obeyed her by taking the fruit and eating it, thus disobeying God.
 
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Getting sick was not on my list of things to do today.

Not that I have a list. But if I did, guess what wouldn't be on it?

....getting eaten by a dinosaur.
And getting sick.
 

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Getting sick was not on my list of things to do today.

Not that I have a list. But if I did, guess what wouldn't be on it?

....getting eaten by a dinosaur.
And getting sick.
Aww feel better.. and please don't get eaten by a dinosaur.
 

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I must confess I like the silly selfie thread too much... and will probably post there again. Silly selfies are a lot more fun than regular ones. There... I've come clean... I feel so much better.. now.. I gotta go take another selfie.
 
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Days like this, I'm so very glad my kids take naps at the same time. Makes it easier to lay here and suffer in peace. Except the lurking dinosaur is kinda giving me the willies.

Urgh....this is fun :/
Good night...day...thing.
 
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Tomorrow I will be applying a second time for a house manager position. This one is term, but it's something and it will put my foot in the door. Been a acting manager for almost 2 weeks, doing great so far. I am also being considered to go to a 3 day facilitator training course in October. The company would be paying the tuition. My coordinator had recommended me to upper-management. That feels good. Trying to take advantage of opportunities to grow in the company. Still have a Plan B if this doesn't work out.
 

gypsygirl

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while some may view the relationship between single and popsicle as a narrow correlation, you'd be quite wrong.

at least in my head, super-yummy and creative popsicles definitely belongs in the singles forum.

it's true.

and therefore i share with you all my newest obsession, making all kinds of crazy popsicles in a number of flavors. this article today provided me plenty of new inspiration as well.

16 Recipes for Ice Pops, Paletas, and Popsicles