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Fenner

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Yes 5 ft 4 inches, I can't reach anything so be glad your taller then most 7th graders!
 

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yeah, it's actually organized by the girl scouts. school counselors "nominate" certain girls that need additional attention or mentoring, usually because they're "at risk" kids for all the unfortunate things that kids (girls) can be at risk for.

what's really cool is that the school supports it so much that they give quite a bit of latitude to take the girls places and do things with them--even what we discuss, especially off-site. we're having a sleepover in two weeks (start praying now, please) and one of my favorite things to do is take them riding. i love seeing their confidence/trust grow in such an organic and beautiful way.

it's heartbreaking to see them trying to find a place in this world without Christ in the center.

i'd like to think i'm helping them and showing them the way, but usually it feels like the opposite. they're such a blessing to my life, and have made me so thankful for the things i didn't have to experience. kids hold a mirror up to you, whether you want to see it or not.

oh, and a funny thing: i was never a girl scout. : )
Awww! that sounds like so much fun. If I were there I'd help make breakfast!! I'm awesome at making lovely pancakes and bacon. :D

I'll definitely pray that everything goes smoothly and that everyone, including you, will have a lot of fun!
 

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Yes 5 ft 4 inches, I can't reach anything so be glad your taller then most 7th graders!

I have friends who are 5 feet, and even 4'11''! Then, here I am, 5'6''/5'7''. It makes me feel like a giant....until I go home and I STILL CAN'T REACH THE TOP SHELF IN THE CUPBOARD! -_-

Sorry for yelling. It's something I've felt strongly about since I was old enough to cook (I was 8 or 9 when I started cooking and hated asking for Mom or Dad to reach something for me). :p My expertise was (and still kind of is) pastry making. Different kinds of cookies, like chocolate caramel chip, white chocolate sugar cookies (no macadamia nuts because my dad's extremely allergic to nuts), and peanut brittle!! I made wonderful peanut brittle. :)

I need to start doing more experiments with gluten-free/dairy-free stuff so I can make caramel chocolate chip cookies again. Those were so good!
 

Fenner

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I'm making some sort of Hawaiian chicken for dinner today. It's chicken with a mango and pineapple sauce. Or maybe it's chicken in a hula skirt. ;)
 
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I have no idea how to cope right now. I'm totally fine, I'm just...kind of panicking. About everything. Feeling like things I thought would happen are never going to, things I hoped would NOT happen are going to...

I have an appointment this afternoon to find out if/how I am going to be able to support my babies. And if so, how long before I can do that.

I'm frustrated because I can't move into my apartment yet, without a way to feed my kids. Not that I couldn't come back to my sister's house every stinkin' day if need be, she's more than willing to feed them and me for as long as necessary and beyond...I just...

It's silly, but I feel like things are at a stand-still right now. I want answers and solutions NOW, not in a few hours, a few days, a few weeks...NOW. Like, yesterday.

Lord, please help me to calm down, to wait, to be patient, and to trust You.
...and if you see fit, also help me find a way to support my ice cream habit.
Amen.

 

Fenner

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I have no idea how to cope right now. I'm totally fine, I'm just...kind of panicking. About everything. Feeling like things I thought would happen are never going to, things I hoped would NOT happen are going to...

I have an appointment this afternoon to find out if/how I am going to be able to support my babies. And if so, how long before I can do that.

I'm frustrated because I can't move into my apartment yet, without a way to feed my kids. Not that I couldn't come back to my sister's house every stinkin' day if need be, she's more than willing to feed them and me for as long as necessary and beyond...I just...

It's silly, but I feel like things are at a stand-still right now. I want answers and solutions NOW, not in a few hours, a few days, a few weeks...NOW. Like, yesterday.

Lord, please help me to calm down, to wait, to be patient, and to trust You.
...and if you see fit, also help me find a way to support my ice cream habit.
Amen.



Waiting is hard! I hate waiting.
 

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I have no idea how to cope right now. I'm totally fine, I'm just...kind of panicking. About everything. Feeling like things I thought would happen are never going to, things I hoped would NOT happen are going to...

I have an appointment this afternoon to find out if/how I am going to be able to support my babies. And if so, how long before I can do that.

I'm frustrated because I can't move into my apartment yet, without a way to feed my kids. Not that I couldn't come back to my sister's house every stinkin' day if need be, she's more than willing to feed them and me for as long as necessary and beyond...I just...

It's silly, but I feel like things are at a stand-still right now. I want answers and solutions NOW, not in a few hours, a few days, a few weeks...NOW. Like, yesterday.

Lord, please help me to calm down, to wait, to be patient, and to trust You.
...and if you see fit, also help me find a way to support my ice cream habit.
Amen.

Concerning food, your state should have an emergency food stamp (or SNAP) program so you can get the funds in about 24 hours. That same department usually handles welfare (or TANF) and Medicaid benefits, too. And if you are approved for benefits, then your children will also be eligible for free or reduced meals if they go to school.

There may also be food banks in your area; I would try calling the more prominent churches in your city because they will either be running the operation or be able to tell you where to find them. Many of the food banks can also pay your bills directly, if you qualify for their assistance. Your own church may also have a benevolence program.

Apply for unemployment (here it's the Texas Workforce Commission). They should be able to help you with your job search and provide some income in the interim. They may also be able to direct you to a childcare subsidy program.

A lot of churches also have some free counseling, which I can't recommend highly enough.

I know this is insanely hard when you don't know where your next meal is coming from. For me, it was a while of just figuring out how to survive before I could start dealing with the grief and emotions I was feeling. You are in my prayers.
 

Fenner

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I was going to mention food banks. I volunteer at my churches and the food we pass out is good, healthy stuff. Cereal, Peanut Butter, also many stores will donate day old bread etc and we all donate toiletries and diapers. If you have food banks that will be a good resource for you.
 

homwardbound

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If I marry, God's going to have to have someone really special to put up with me. lol

I mean, I'm not an unpleasant person to be with. That's not it. lol I'm going to have to have someone who'll be able to deal with me whenever I have a nosebleed. Now I don't have them very often. When I do, though, man. I'm a wreck. I had one about an hour ago...and I went into a small panic attack and got so nauseous that I got sick to my stomach. Yeah.
The put up with goes both ways Sister, so it is important to have our ears wired to hear God in Spirit and to know. Been with mine for over 30 years now and married in two weeks after we met, we both knew, and we both treat with pure love unconditionally, not ever trying to change one another. yet that does not mean we have not argued, and not eve3r gotten mad at each other. You will know when the timing is right, just be careful in knowing whose voice you are listening to.
Abraham was promised the Child and it took 29 years for Abraham to be sure beyond a shadow of a doubt as to was to be. yet along that way he had the bond Child around the fifteenth year after the promise from God
Trust God all in all, and learn from any and all mistakes along the way, for God does just truly love us all
 

homwardbound

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I'm having a pretty bad day. Today is my best friend's birthday. She died on October 25th 2013. Her Facebook wall is flooded with wishes and people saying how much they miss her. I had to delete her because I couldn't bear to see it. She would have been 38 today.
Not easy to face reality in death, I remember, but when I did this after hearing this I was freed and happy for the lost ones:

There was a man who opened a new business and on the day of grand opening, he went early to make sure all things were in order, and as he went inside he saw the flower arrangment and was pleased, he then picked up the note attached and read what it said:
It said "rest in peace". He angry over this called the florist and said this is what is said at a funeral. And the Florist replied and you should have heard what the funeral parlor called and said
What is this "Welcome to your new location " I got it finally and welcomed my Family that has gone before me to their new location, trusting God all in all, finally freed from the stress of what I can not ever change
Praying for you to see past the pain
 

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Awww! that sounds like so much fun. If I were there I'd help make breakfast!! I'm awesome at making lovely pancakes and bacon. :D

I'll definitely pray that everything goes smoothly and that everyone, including you, will have a lot of fun!
thanks, and wow, i wish you could come!!! that would be so fun!

these sleepovers always turn into some giant all-night goof-off that i eventually try to pretend to be asleep through (if i can help it). listening to them give each other advice is actually hysterical too. occasionally i'll chime in, but i usually let them talk it out (as long as the advice isn't too wonky).

they're the epitome of young ladies and little girls. and you see both switch back and forth. the last sleepover, we ended up talking about how to handle boys (such as those that pressure for sex) and the virtue of waiting. it's hard to talk about this and other topics without focusing on the Lord, yet, i also know that there's a fine line between what i can share and making it such a hard sell. i struggle, because i am an "employee" of the program, albeit a volunteer one, and yet, who wants to miss a chance to share good news about the Lord? in some ways, i am surprised no parent or school official has complained yet. i've been expecting that for awhile now. i am especially close to two of the girls, and have become friendly with their parents. they've both come to church with me, and one of them i bring along to the juvenile horsemanship class i teach (and she might be almost as horse crazy as i am).

if i didn't have these kids, i'd probably feel a bit like the old lady in a shoe (or boot).

I have friends who are 5 feet, and even 4'11''! Then, here I am, 5'6''/5'7''. It makes me feel like a giant....until I go home and I STILL CAN'T REACH THE TOP SHELF IN THE CUPBOARD! -_-

Sorry for yelling. It's something I've felt strongly about since I was old enough to cook (I was 8 or 9 when I started cooking and hated asking for Mom or Dad to reach something for me). :p My expertise was (and still kind of is) pastry making. Different kinds of cookies, like chocolate caramel chip, white chocolate sugar cookies (no macadamia nuts because my dad's extremely allergic to nuts), and peanut brittle!! I made wonderful peanut brittle. :)

I need to start doing more experiments with gluten-free/dairy-free stuff so I can make caramel chocolate chip cookies again. Those were so good!
yeah, i'm in the same boat. one of my good friends is 5 foot even, and i feel like an giant next to her. often i wear heels/heeled boots when we meet up to have dinner or something, so i'm closer to 5'll"and i feel like i'm walking with a little kid.

but yeah, i still have to climb up on things to get to some of the stuff in the very top/back of my kitchen or the grocery store.

oh, i'd be interested in some of your gluten-free pursuits. i also have a decent list of gluten free recipes, because i try to eat gluten free (more out of preference). chia and flax seed have been a huge asset for me in the kitchen and adding to recipes. they seem to not only mimic egg texture, but even some of the elasticity/moisture that comes from the vital gluten in wheat. hit me up if you want some recipes. : )
 
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homwardbound

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So, you guys have been here for me when I was dealing with some dark stuff and I just wanted to say thanks. I've been reading above and I see some of you are also experiencing stuff, just wanted to say I really hope it all turns around soon and you're all happy etc. You're good people. I am lucky to have met you bunch.
It is said by God that we will have: but don't fear
[h=3]John 16:33[/h]Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

[SUP]33 [/SUP]These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Reaction has everything to destroy us or grow us in Faith in he overcame the world, therefore you being in him guess what you as well have overcome the world too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! by believing God, that God will always work all things out fro your good even when it does not appear so. Stand fast as Job in the book of Job, never denied God, stood just as God said he would, awesome yes and he stood in this Faith:
Job 19:25
For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth:

Today this has happened in Christ it is finished God won, we are looking back at the cross when Job was looking forward to that day of victory came. It has come and we are victors while in adversity, thanks to God through Son Christ
 

homwardbound

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I hate it when I get all...needy and pathetic.

Part of me is like, "I so got this. Don't worry about me, I can do anything!"
And another part of me is like..."Don't leave me by myself, it's dark and scary and there's monsters under the bed."
In Christ no matter what we are victorious, thanks to Christ, we put trust in Father and we get led and learn from any and all mistakes to grow up in him a love that can not be quenched ever, and this is for all to make their choice as in to believe God or not, too simple really
 

homwardbound

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I just tried a glass of some cheap cabernet sauvignon. I really needed something to take the edge off tonight. Here's to alcohol... a frustrated, lonely man's best freind (I don't have a dog :p).

Oh and by the way... I don't drink! Although that may be starting to change. :/
Just wanted to say that drinking is nothing more that an escape from facing truth. I know I was an alcoholic for 13 years not ever wanting to face up to my Sister's death at age 14 she died at 18, and I self medicated me for all those years afterwards, when I faced and accepted the fact that she is died in the physical, I lost the deisre to self medicate me anymore and have been dry now for 30 years. Praying you do not get caught up in escaping reality
 

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I've visited two doctors in two days. Neither one of them had the requested biopsy results they wanted. Apparently the lab at the hospital is backed up. To throw a little temper tantrum... the lab has had 7 days to process the 3 biopsies the surgeon took. Seven days is plenty of time to cut up pieces of my lymph nodes and see if something in my body is trying to kill me. Plenty of time! Don't they realize I'm scared and curious and scared?
 
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I've visited two doctors in two days. Neither one of them had the requested biopsy results they wanted. Apparently the lab at the hospital is backed up. To throw a little temper tantrum... the lab has had 7 days to process the 3 biopsies the surgeon took. Seven days is plenty of time to cut up pieces of my lymph nodes and see if something in my body is trying to kill me. Plenty of time! Don't they realize I'm scared and curious and scared?
​Sorry you are dealing with this. I know I would be scared too. I hope you get it sorted out soon.
 
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I've visited two doctors in two days. Neither one of them had the requested biopsy results they wanted. Apparently the lab at the hospital is backed up. To throw a little temper tantrum... the lab has had 7 days to process the 3 biopsies the surgeon took. Seven days is plenty of time to cut up pieces of my lymph nodes and see if something in my body is trying to kill me. Plenty of time! Don't they realize I'm scared and curious and scared?
A lot of doctors get so wrapped up in just seeing as many patients as they can that they start to forget that their patients are PEOPLE and need to be treated like it.
If you want, I could bust up in there and demand answers. I'm in one of those moods. Plus, this would be a very good cause to get all...crazy...about.
I bet a bunch of us here would be willing to do it. We all want to know that you're okay.

Still praying for you Aimee.
 
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