Gary reached out to me and we had a brief private conversation. With his permission, I am reposting my comments in there entirety. My first thought was to remove a few parts that some might find offensive, I decided against it.
It was an interesting few days hanging out here on the chat. Thanks to all of you who showed me brotherly kindness.
I was going to stick around and try to find some productive threads to participate in, or start one of my own, I just don’t see the point. The diversity of views on this forum, and the tone in which they are presented here, it makes encouragement and edification (for me at least, your mileage may vary) almost impossible.
I came here to encourage, be encouraged, and share in the wonderful truth of the person and work of the Lord Jesus Christ and to fellowship with other believers in the Spirit. My experience has been quite different than what I hoped for.
So far I’ve been berated for not supporting one persons preferred political candidate and told that I’ll get what I deserve for not doing so. I’ve been called unwise, unlearned, and ungrateful by people who don’t know me from Adam. My strongest points have been ignored, my weaknesses exploited. The best conversation I had here was brief, and with someone I suspect wasn’t even a genuine person.
But worst of all, I found myself engaging in the same type of self righteous, self important, condescending behavior that was being directed towards me. And that is where I draw the line.
For anyone I’ve offended, please accept my sincere and humble apologies. Debate is fine, it’s healthy, or at least it should be. That doesn’t seem to be the case around here. That’s not an indictment, just an observation.
As a final attempt to encourage and bless my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, please allow me to recommend a book or two.
Holiest of All. A Commentary on Hebrews
by Andrew Murray
The Evil of Evils
by Jeremiah Burroughs
The Doctrine of Repentance
by Thomas Watson
Christ Set Forth
by Thomas Goodwin
(I seriously labored through this brothers book, his writing style was painful to endure, and it was worth every moment)
My comments to Gary follow below.
“Thanks for the kind note. It is encouraging to know that we are not alone in our observations and understanding. Regardless of how far along this road towards true understanding each of us may have traveled thus far.
Sadly, we are in the minority. And it is becoming increasingly obvious to me, that most of those, who for whatever reasons are unable or unwilling to even question their indoctrination, shall never do so. This is clearly not a matter of intellect, but there are spiritual forces long at work that blind the hearts and minds of men. When a man submits to fantasy, opposed to all observable physical reality, when he can so easily dismiss his senses and chooses rather to embrace the absurd explanations of a class of people who have proven themselves hostile at every turn to the God he claims to know and trust, what can be done to change his mind, his direction, or his fate?
I’ve decided, after looking over the threads and particularly my own contributions to them, that this is a pointless endeavor, counterproductive, and as good intentioned as both sides may be, leads us all away from those more important topics, which if actively pursued, may at some point break the spell that so many of our brothers have fallen victim to. Hence, I’ve decided to opt out of this discussion going forward.
There is a fine line between the desire to share wisdom, and the need to be proven correct. I feel as if those of us on our side of the argument are regularly crossing this line, self included, it smacks of pride, and pride being the first great sin, it needs be repented of.
From now on I will confine myself to those weightier subjects that lead men closer to Christ, further from division, nearer to fellowship, and hopefully in doing so, eventually the globe crowd will come around in time.
My personal studies have suffered due to the time wasted on these divisive topics. While I still believe them to be of great importance, they pale in comparison to growing in our knowledge of Christ, His redemptive work in our lives, and the promise of sanctification offered to those of us who are called by His name.
Perhaps you would be willing to join me in opening up a new thread. I have been focusing my personal devotions of late on the Person and works of Jesus Christ, His excellency, His magesty, and His redemptive power. In just a short time, my faith as well as my faithfulness has grown through this process.
I came to this site for fellowship, what I’ve encountered so far. with few exceptions, has been quite the opposite. I’m going to make an effort to change that. If unsuccessful, I’ll just move on.
Thanks again for the kind note, and for your support in the threads. Blessings and mercy and peace in His Most Holy Name”.
Seeing as deleting my account is not an option. I’ll just leave it at that. I may be long winded, my apologies, but I am far from insincere or disingenuous. It’s been a long hard struggle getting to the place I currently find myself in my walk with Christ, I’m not about to risk it for the sake of winning or even participating in
arguments that go nowhere. I’m glad you guys are strong enough to banter and bicker as you do, I’m not. Shalom.