I know very well I'm a filthy sinner. I'm nothing but a mere spot in this mess of a world. I know I'm worthy of hellfire and damnation. I know I'm worthy of the worst punishment God could possibly inflict. I know I'm not above anyone else in this regard.
But I don't care. A Christian who rapes a child is not a Christian, no matter what you say. We have things called STANDARDS to live up to. Without those standards, we wouldn't be able to tell who's really a Christian.
But believe me, just because I love God doesn't mean I love everything he does. In fact, I only really love God out of gratefulness for allowing his son to take the hellish punishment I deserve. I only love him because I must if I want to survive. I only love him because he made me to do that. I only love him because he's the Almighty Creator of the universe. I'd hate to be anyone's enemy, but his most of all.
Say what you will, but even though I feel emotions, I don't feel them the same way everyone else does. I was not designed that way, and constantly having to explain it to people only reminds me of how short I feel of being human. I empathize more with animals and feel I have much more in common with them than human beings.
Again, believe me, I've cried over feeling incredibly lonely. Having no friends or close family members or even God to share life with. That no one, God included, will EVER understand how LONELY it can be being where I am. But who am I to talk bad of anything God does? If anything else I just keep my mouth shut to keep from being thrown into the fire.
And let me tell you, if you were to ask me if I value fairness or love, I'd choose fairness. That's how life is, and I sometimes wish that's how God worked. Yes, even for me, his "precious" creation. I know what love is, but I've never felt it the way a lot of humans take for granted. God then must want to make an example of me to show everyone how humans do NOT love. But no matter. What do I know? I deserve nothing good from him.
There comes a time when someone has to put aside their childish notions and accept the world as I previously said it is, even with a loving God in it. It may be bad, terrible even, but I don't even want to think about the horrors of hell.
He's God. I'm not. I love him, but I'm not capable of loving him the way he probably wants me to.
I am not against your anger toward pedophiles or any other terrible sins you see in the world that Christians have done or are capeable of doing. God does not condone that either. And none of it will go unpunished. The verse in (Heb. 10:31), "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God", is written to Christians. And this speaks to the here and now.
What I oppose is your unwillingness to call yourself Christian if indeed you are Christian, as I don't know you. A Christian is one who has come to Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour and is born-again. Does Jesus Christ condone pedophiles? Of course not. Many of these that your read about may not even be Christian. They could be just religious with a job. But let's say one is a Christian, who has walked in the flesh to the degree that he has committed this sin. Does Jesus Christ condone this just because he is a Christian? Of course not. Does Christ see it? Of course He does. And again, (Heb. 10:31) "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." Read also (Heb. 10:29) "Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?"
Your posts seem to indicate that Christians or non-Christians who do these things are getting away with it. They do not. Even if we do not see what we believe to be justice executed, I assure you it is. God can build a prison for a person without using bars and walls. And God can execute a person any time He desires.
I understand your desire for 'fairness' in the world. Who wouldn't like to see everyone treated fairly by others. But when it comes to us and God, do we want fairness? Or do we want mercy and forgiveness? As a Christian, I don't want to be treated justly. I want mercy. Because I need it. So if another brother or sister is in need of the same mercy and forgiveness, who am I to say I wont identify with them anymore as Christian.
The only One Who has a right to say, I will no longer identify with the Christian people, for their sins is Jesus Christ. Yet He does not. (Heb. 2:11) "For both he that sanctifieth and they who are sanctified are all of one: for which cause he is not ashamed to call them brethren"
Indeed, we are not capeable of loving God as we should. That grows. And He has a lot of patience and time. But our inability to love Him as we should does not affect His ability to love us as He does. And this to me is more important. Peter claimed a love for Jesus. (Matt. 26:33). John claimed Jesus loved him. (John 13:23, 19:26, 20:2, 21:7, 21:20) When the chips were down, who stayed with Christ? John. (John 19:26) The one who knew Jesus loved him.
Before you cast off the name 'Christian', I would sit down and read the New Testament and see if there is anything there condoning the lifestyle of pedophiles or the like.
Quantrill