Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[CatHerder]

I'm excited to be going to the hippie art studio tonight after teaching my last lesson. I haven't been in about two weeks because it's been so crazy at work! I am so wanting to finish this cat project, then make more coffee mug hangings by the next "Second Saturday," when they have a bunch of galleries and such open late, street performers (last time I attended there was a fire dancer!!), and food vendors out.

I have been reluctant to put anything up for sale or display because it's not "perfect;" this piece wasn't cut quite right, or the solder could have been better here or there...ugh!

Though I haven't been able to work on my project in a while, I have seen many examples of stained glass works in windows, antique and thrift shops, etc. I've seen the workmanship, and while some are outstanding, most are comparable to my stuff...and they are selling! Plus, I am only getting better at it, so I really shouldn't feel any apprehension about my stuff being "not good enough." sheesh.

I need to start following the type of advice I give other people.

 

[CatHerder]

what i learned (or was reminded of) this week:

+ sleeping in my own bed is SOOOOOOOO underrated

+ i don't like running on the sidewalks. ouchie.

+ hotel shampoo/conditioner makes my hair misbehave

+ i love people watching at the airport - sigh

+ that it's ok to abandon a dream and make new plans

+ vending machine peanuts make an acceptable dinner in a pinch

+ good friends are seriously the best

Maybe I should have started a new thread?

 

[gypsygirl]

I don't know if I can physically and mentally do this and not sleep my life away. But what is the alternative? I need to make a life for myself, I can't rely on finding a mate to help with income, my rent being so cheap, my car not breaking down, nor that my seizures to finally are controlled. There are realities in life that I can't get around. Yes, God may help me in someways. I feel pressed. I should take the manager job even though it already exhausts me and causing smaller seizures, I will need to get on more meds then which effects my memory and energy, possibly mood as well. My life will consist of work and sleep. But then I can pay off debt and be more secure if I need to move or have to get another car.

(Sorry I keep posting about this stuff)

So! I don't have an ear infection. My doc said it was an allergy thing, and I should monitor it, but not to worry.


She adjusted my insulin to 4 times a day. My numbers have been out of control, so she wants to treat the diabetes aggressively. And I'm game. I'm tired of being sick and tired and feeling like I'm going to throw up. If I don't fix my numbers I could have a heart attack or stroke. I'm only 33. I shouldn't have to worry about stroking out.



Please pray for me. This is a big adjustment and this change is scary and hard.





Thanks for all your prayer and support.

persnickety and aimee, i'm sorry you're both going through this challenging time. and thank you for sharing this with us. i'm glad that you do that so we can pray and support you.

and i'm praying for you both.

plus, it inspires me to be more honest, and do the same. and i thank you for that.

i can relate a bit to some of what you shared. while it's not on the same scale of concern, i'm sort of scared a little about what's going on with my blood work. we've had a decent routine going on for awhile, but in the last few weeks, i've lost weight and i think either that plus the stress has affected the numbers. OR, things are shifting on their own. and i really don't know. but my blood work recently done hasn't been this low/messed up since before i was being treated for this.

i have a very mild blood disorder as a result of my body's inability to digest iron and some other nutrients well. as a result, i have some pretty wacky numbers that present as anemia, excessively high (but tiny platelets) and issues with my red blood cells. all of this impacts SO many things. mood, energy, and sooo much more. your blood is the delivery system for (nearly) every nourishing and regulating thing delivered to your body.

i am scheduling iron infusions for the coming days - several 2 hour appointments were i am hooked up to bags of iron sucrose. my dr recently tripled my b12 injection dosage. as much as i hate them, i'm grateful i only usually have to do them a couple times a year, at least for now.

i feel like if i stop moving, i'll become a lethargic polar bear. so i keep the oxygen moving in my brain through activity. and the other stuff i can do. i'm scared to become what i fear.

because i know what the alternative feels like. and i can't go there.

p.s. evie, you KNOW i'm praying for you, sweets. : )

Maybe I should have started a new thread?

DOOOOO IT!!!!!

i triple dog dare you!!!

 

[Raine]

Gypsy

Physical illness can be a very scary thing... especially when it becomes something you lose control over.

I have a blood disorder too! Idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura.

Now try saying the 10 times fast!

I remember the first time I was diagnosed with it... The doctor promised to treat me to breakfast if I could pronounce it by the end of the night correctly. I did learn how to say it correctly by the end of the night... However, I didn't stay overnight at the hospital lol.

I am stable at this time... but it is something that will come back to test me again in the future.

Woohoo, more trials with God!

 

[gypsygirl]

Gypsy

Physical illness can be a very scary thing... especially when it becomes something you lose control over.

I have a blood disorder too! Idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura.

Now try saying the 10 times fast!

I remember the first time I was diagnosed with it... The doctor promised to treat me to breakfast if I could pronounce it by the end of the night correctly. I did learn how to say it correctly by the end of the night... However, I didn't stay overnight at the hospital lol.

I am stable at this time... but it is something that will come back to test me again in the future.
Woohoo, more trials with God!

fascinating. i'm actually familiar with ITP because i'm a science/med geek. i'm glad you're stable!

my mom has the mild version of von willebrand's which is a little like hemophilia. so far, i've shown no evidence of it and have had surguries/procedures without complications. the testing of it is spotty, at best, but it's pretty clear none of us kids got that.

as a sidenote, my mom wasn't too happy when i informed her that von willebrands is a common disorder for dogs, specifically german shepherds. so i call it the "german sheperd disease" to yank her leg. *snicker*

thanks for sharing that, raine. : )

 

[Tintin]

I'm working on telling a Bible story and I crossed out the parts that interrupt the story flow to help me get down to the basics of the story so other people can remember it. That's the short answer.

Ah, that makes sense. I didn't think there was any reason to believe you were like River from Firefly (the TV series) crossing out all of the bits of the Bible you struggled with. It's all good, Cinder.

 

[Tintin]

Shouryu, I've heard that one before: that if you're Bible's not falling apart, you probably are. But what if you have multiple Bibles and read them regularly? They wouldn't fall apart nearly as quickly.

 

[Ugly]

Bahaha I almost responded the same way!

I like when people share their personal struggles... Not just so I don't feel like I'm hogging the thread, but because if people open up more, more prayer and support and empathy can be offered. I ramble on about myself a lot, but I also read every single post in here, and often stop to pray for people and sometimes I'm even able to offer what little I've got to that person. I don't know if it helps...I just know that y'all are important to me and if you guys share more, it gives myself and others the opportunity to pray and offer advice or comfort as others have done for us.

That got more serious than I was planning.

Coffee!

You give back a lot more than you know.

Hi, I'd like to know if there's any other books you can recommend that's similar to this one?

Not sure if this is the kind of recommendation you meant, but Demon: A Memoir by Tosca Lee was inspired by The Screwtape Letters.

 

[Ugly]

i feel like if i stop moving, i'll become a lethargic polar bear. so i keep the oxygen moving in my brain through activity. and the other stuff i can do. i'm scared to become what i fear.

Lethargic polar bear? But... that's me...

 

[Tintin]

Yeah, Demon: A Memoir by Tosca Lee is a great, thought-provoking read.

 

[Ugly]

Yeah, Demon: A Memoir by Tosca Lee is a great, thought-provoking read.

Yeah, i want to read her others as well.
A friend and i are about to read the Dekker/Lee prequel The Keeper.

 

[lil_christian]

Stupid sunburn. I KNEW I should have put sunscreen on. But noooo. I thought I'd be fine!

 

[zeroturbulence]

Is it just my computer or is the bottom half of page #903 here (the page before this one) some kind of portal to another dimension????? O_O

 

[Tintin]

Is it just my computer or is the bottom half of page #903 here (the page before this one) some kind of portal to another dimension????? O_O

I think it's just you, Doctor Who.

 

[lil_christian]

I seriously do not get how someone could use such large vocabulary to emphasize their point and sound intelligent. Yet, they do not realize how stupid they're acting by debating with random people on the internet. Yeah, I tried debating with people on the internet once. Not once did it change anyone's mind, or my mind. It's just a time waster and it doesn't prove anything.

 

[blueorchidjd]

 

[Arlene89]

In a couple of minutes, I will be going to the gym to be trained by my older brother who is a personal trainer (Its the only way I get to spend time with him these days). Last night he stopped by to pick up something, to which I said, "Go easy on me tomorrow, will ya'?" He laughed. He ugly laughed all the way from the dining room to his car. Something tells me I won't be moving around too much this weekend.

Prayers would be great.

 

[Tintin]

In a couple of minutes, I will be going to the gym to be trained by my older brother who is a personal trainer (Its the only way I get to spend time with him these days). Last night he stopped by to pick up something, to which I said, "Go easy on me tomorrow, will ya'?" He laughed. He ugly laughed all the way from the dining room to his car. Something tells me I won't be moving around too much this weekend.

Prayers would be great.

I'll be praying for you, Arlene. Maybe now you'll be able to sit still when you talk to me.

 

[JustAnotherUser]

Cotton candy flavored ice cream was the best thing that's ever happened to me. ; u ;

 

[wwjd_kilden]

* Shudder *