Things on my mind this morning include, but are not limited to:
Today I'll be packing up all the movies, gifts, trinkets from my ex and his family. There's a place here at my apartment complex where people can leave things they're getting rid of and other tenants can look through it and take what they want; I'll take this stuff there later.
I definitely have to rearrange my house...
I feel so drained today. I guess that's a nice change from all the pain and chaos? I dunno. I think I'm tired of not knowing what the day will bring. It's been surprise after surprise every day for a couple of weeks now and even though there's been a few good things thrown in, I'm just...ugh. So tired.
Last night I kept having dreams that I was trying to find a quiet place to curl up and sleep...I was carrying around my pillow and blanket and every time I settled somewhere, a phone would ring or someone would shake me or my kids would cry...at some point in the dream, I just started crying because I was so exhausted.
I miss stability.