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iTOREtheSKY

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Sometimes out of sheer OCD's I look at my profile page & see who's visited my page & if it's someone not on my friend's list I hesitate about looking at their page until it drives me batty...then I go peek at their page & feel like I've just invaded their space. lol then comes the shame & regret of knowing they've caught me.

Man I am strange. I think I need cupcakes & a good face painting!
 
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arwen83

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Currently tingling, weak and relaxed. That is all.
 

DuchessAimee

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I'm making two of my friends a set of "Open when you feel..." envelopes for Christmas.

For example, envelopes that say "Open when you feel alone" and "Open when you want a laugh" and "Open when you need to know your worth". Inside will be a note from me and scriptures.

It's taking longer than I though, though, to hand write everything. I guess I should have started earlier.


Hey, can I copy you? That would be perfect for my bestie!
 
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iTOREtheSKY

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Currently tingling, weak and relaxed. That is all.

Either you have scurvy or just came back from a day @ the spa. Yer' Canadian,so I'm guessing....spa? lolz
 
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arwen83

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Either you have scurvy or just came back from a day @ the spa. Yer' Canadian,so I'm guessing....spa? lolz
1 hour Massage, then bubble bath with lavender oil. All is good in the world of Arwen. All of it.
 
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colalella2891

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I'm about to eat some chili. :) So yummy on a freezing night like this.
 
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arwen83

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We don't relax enough. Really we don't. Work ourselves into a grave. Little self-care. Be good to your bodies. I haven't felt this relaxed since I stopped smoking marijuana many many years ago.
 

lil_christian

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I'm going to be tucked in a corner, crying for the rest of the night.

I pretty much missed the deadline for the scholarship. I e-mailed the scholarship site three days ago, asking about a way I could get into my old application (typically you could get back in with a password. But I don't have a password for it, because I hit the wrong button). They didn't reply.
 
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iTOREtheSKY

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We don't relax enough. Really we don't. Work ourselves into a grave. Little self-care. Be good to your bodies. I haven't felt this relaxed since I stopped smoking marijuana many many years ago.
I just can't for one second imagine you smoking pot. You seem too elegant for that. I don't say that to be creepy or sarcastic either...I just see you as so "lady-like" lol I dunno..I just can't think of you with a spliff between yer' lips w/out cracking up. sorry.
 
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arwen83

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I just can't for one second imagine you smoking pot. You seem too elegant for that. I don't say that to be creepy or sarcastic either...I just see you as so "lady-like" lol I dunno..I just can't think of you with a spliff between yer' lips w/out cracking up. sorry.
Haha well I don't mind being called elegant :D At that time I had friends and a boyfriend that were smoking, and I was self-medicating my seizures which it helped for the most part.
 
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iTOREtheSKY

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I hit "like" not because I enjoy you self medicating,but because yer' so open about what you were dealing with.
 
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arwen83

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I hit "like" not because I enjoy you self medicating,but because yer' so open about what you were dealing with.
Thanks! And I definitely wasn't addicted, I was doing it recreational but never went out of my to buy any. I stopped pretty easily. I was in the middle of having a seizure come on, in which I tried to deter from happening by smoking pot, but may of just prolonged the experience. It did stop me from going unconscious, but I still felt the paralyzing and weird sensations of the seizure. I am not for sure if the pot did this or not, but it was scary enough that I was afraid to go near the stuff. I really got closed in and anxious after that, afraid to have another one, would have to be home in bed before 11pm, if it was later, panic would ensue. I became quite lame really lol.

Technicially, I qualify to smoke medicinal marijuana. There is a strand that is high in CBD/ very low in THC (therefore no high) that are for people with epilepsy. Lots of red tape involved though (obviously). The main qualifier is that if conventional medications aren't working -which they are for me. I wouldn't mind trying it in the future if I ever could. See how it works.
 
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Sometimes out of sheer OCD's I look at my profile page & see who's visited my page & if it's someone not on my friend's list I hesitate about looking at their page until it drives me batty...then I go peek at their page & feel like I've just invaded their space. lol then comes the shame & regret of knowing they've caught me.

Man I am strange. I think I need cupcakes & a good face painting!
Pipp and I can help you with that! AND... I shamelessly shuffle through profiles all the time. And I'm pleasantly delighted when anyone shuffles through mine. Unless I've been involved in a huge debacle, I consider it a compliment.

We don't relax enough. Really we don't. Work ourselves into a grave. Little self-care. Be good to your bodies. I haven't felt this relaxed since I stopped smoking marijuana many many years ago.
Wow, maybe I should try a massage sometime. I feel like it would be awkward, and I wouldn't be able to relax, but I suppose after a while the relaxation just soaks in regardless.

I'm going to be tucked in a corner, crying for the rest of the night.

I pretty much missed the deadline for the scholarship. I e-mailed the scholarship site three days ago, asking about a way I could get into my old application (typically you could get back in with a password. But I don't have a password for it, because I hit the wrong button). They didn't reply.
Oh Lil, I'm sorry... Can you call them on the phone about it? Or better yet, get your mom to. :)
 
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I'm going to be tucked in a corner, crying for the rest of the night.

I pretty much missed the deadline for the scholarship. I e-mailed the scholarship site three days ago, asking about a way I could get into my old application (typically you could get back in with a password. But I don't have a password for it, because I hit the wrong button). They didn't reply.
*HUGS* I'm so sorry, sister. :( praying for peace for your heart and mind.

Also, remember how much you are loved, not just by us but by the KING of all creation. He has good plans for you. I'm a journaler and when I look back at the times when I felt like I had failed, I can flip forward a few (or not so few) pages and see how He has accomplished great things..and I can't help but marvel at His ways.

You are loved, by a very very good and powerful God. Do not give up hope <3
 

rachelsedge

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This week will be pretty tiring for me. Some of my friends are back from college, and one of my closest friends who is back is an extrovert and so wants to do extroverted things. Stuff going on every day, either work, social stuff, or both. Not that social stuff is bad or that I don't like hanging with friends. It's just that I think my internal "People battery" will be running on low all week.

I feel un-Christ like when I say that.
 
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iTOREtheSKY

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Thanks! And I definitely wasn't addicted, I was doing it recreational but never went out of my to buy any. I stopped pretty easily. I was in the middle of having a seizure come on, in which I tried to deter from happening by smoking pot, but may of just prolonged the experience. It did stop me from going unconscious, but I still felt the paralyzing and weird sensations of the seizure. I am not for sure if the pot did this or not, but it was scary enough that I was afraid to go near the stuff. I really got closed in and anxious after that, afraid to have another one, would have to be home in bed before 11pm, if it was later, panic would ensue. I became quite lame really lol.

Technicially, I qualify to smoke medicinal marijuana. There is a strand that is high in CBD/ very low in THC (therefore no high) that are for people with epilepsy. Lots of red tape involved though (obviously). The main qualifier is that if conventional medications aren't working -which they are for me. I wouldn't mind trying it in the future if I ever could. See how it works.

I smoked for about 6 months when I was 16. A friend of mine who played the best Randy Rhodes guitar riffs was a dealer & used to smoke with me when he got off his job @ 2 am. We'd talk about music & jam..talk more..laugh..and then get really hungry. I never liked who I was when smoking pot. I was much more a booze type of person. Pot never seemed to make me feel anything but sleepy & hungry. I'll be honest & I know it's not the A-typical christian answer yer' supposed to give,but if Grass helps people with their sickness then I am all for it! I'm not someone who is 360...240...160..$9.95 pro active??? lol but if medically it helps peeps with their ailments,to me it's no worse than any other drugs the FDA says are "ok". Again...blessed by yer' openness concerning yer' seizures & etc... Nothing a soft kitty,warm kitty can't cure. lol :p
 
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arwen83

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I smoked for about 6 months when I was 16. A friend of mine who played the best Randy Rhodes guitar riffs was a dealer & used to smoke with me when he got off his job @ 2 am. We'd talk about music & jam..talk more..laugh..and then get really hungry. I never liked who I was when smoking pot. I was much more a booze type of person. Pot never seemed to make me feel anything but sleepy & hungry. I'll be honest & I know it's not the A-typical christian answer yer' supposed to give,but if Grass helps people with their sickness then I am all for it! I'm not someone who is 360...240...160..$9.95 pro active??? lol but if medically it helps peeps with their ailments,to me it's no worse than any other drugs the FDA says are "ok". Again...blessed by yer' openness concerning yer' seizures & etc... Nothing a soft kitty,warm kitty can't cure. lol :p
Well I appreciate your non-A typical answer and openness as well. That's right about the FDA, the drug I am on (like many others) are so new to the market that they don't know long time side effects, or even how it actually works but that it effect some chemicals in my brain to stop causing the seizures. It's all very vague and trial and error. I heard of a little girl who had 300 seizures a week! in the US and with some struggle, her parents were able to get her CBD and reduced them down to only a few a week. But yes. Soft kitty. On that note goodnight!
 
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I smoked the stuff till i was about 23.

and to tell you the truth, ill smoke the stuff again and i will never take any big pharma's poison pills. at least pot grows in the wild naturally
 
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colalella2891

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Watching The Hobbit 1 again. I can say that overall I enjoy watching it, especially since Gandalf has always been my favorite character in the LOTR franchise.

But I don't enjoy it as much as the LOTR films... I think it's because The Hobbit is apparently being targeted at a younger audience. I heard the Hobbit 2 is targeted more at the LOTR audience than the younger demo, so I should enjoy that one more. :cool: I'm hearing mixed reviews about it so far, so we'll see.