@GaryA,
I do understand how you feel. These kinds of things prick our hearts in the places where we are most vulnerable.
A while back when
@tourist and his now lovely wife were just getting to know each on this site, they wrote some playful threads back and forth to each other during their dating/courting process. I felt the same way about all of that then then as what you are expressing towards Lynx's post now.
After some time had passed, I actually wrote to Tourist's wife and apologized. I explained to her that at the time, I'd been longing for a boyfriend and seeing the two of them have this beautiful journey together right before all our eyes set off something awful in my heart, and God convicted me of my envy.
I apologized to her and told her I was so sorry for how I felt and any sharp remarks I might have made at the time. She was overwhelmingly gracious and told me she completely understood, saying she would have felt the same way when she was single. It was a relief to talk to her and receive her blessing but it did take me a while.
To be honest, this whole upcoming meetup is actually kind of my fault so if you want, you can blame me.
I was planning out my schedule for the year and happened to mention, "Hey guys, I'm going to be in X location around X time... Would anyone be interested in meeting up?" And a few of them were. However, I had an emergency a few weeks ago in which a family member wound up in the ER and suddenly, I wasn't sure if I could still go.
Thankfully, I think God has put us in the clear, but I felt TERRIBLE for getting everyone riled up and then possibly having to back out on them.
So, Lynx's post is more than just anticipation -- it's pouring out from a feeling of relief as well.