Dude..I feel yer' pain my friend...but srsly....I've only dated 6 women in my entire life,and I am 43 yrs old. I was single from age 23-30...then got married. The last 3 yrs of my marriage,I might as well have been single. Trust me...you do not want to end up in a relationship...even worse than that...end up married,if it's not born of God! I married an unbeliever because I gave up on Christian women and gave up on waiting for God to bring that special person into my life and me into theirs. I jumped the gun on God's plan for my life. I know that now. I took the "easy" path because I knew secular women liked me & I believed the lie that no Christian woman would ever find me good enough or desire someone who wasn't the cookie cutter 3 piece suit guy that could quote every chapter & verse...wanted 3 kids & a white picket fence type Christian.
I pray God will heal your heart bro. I pray that as you seek the face of God more & more,that you become less discouraged by your situation & your past. Hang in there!