@RoxanaOfPersia
I submit that you won't find answers to your questions here at this time asking in such a manner.
Is English your primary language? If not that would be helpful information in understanding your interactions.
It may not be your intention but the way you are asking questions and then not responding when someone takes the time to respond and asking another looks like trying to stir up something.
If you are really out to avail yourself of the additional resource that the body can be when searching/seeking/doubting then based off what I just read for 7 pages, you may want to reconsider your interactions if what you seek is productive discourse.
Also to, of course understand that faith is a part of being a believer and that "straight answers" that are based off sight and not faith are rarely given in a way that satisfies the carnal inquisitiveness of humans and the impatience for faith to be sight. I'm not saying it "can't" occur but it is incredibly rare and may not ever happen.
You have an option I see...to take your questions to the Lord regardless of who you understand him to be and humbly place yourself at his mercy for understanding.